just do it!

we always see others successful life achievements and...
the question pop out why they can and i'm happy for them and hope i can be as good as them...
but, ya thats it...hoping can be like them...
so, hoping and dreaming and if and if and if...

most of successful people advise to dream big!
why big?
because at least in order to achive something big...
we will try harder & better, than to run for just small & tidy target

okay, next!
the step after dream big is actions
start with no matter how small the step just do it!
just list the actions and do it!
and when u pass this step...u will have no problem to move on with the following steps
the steps & actions to success...

ya...thinking & saying & listing & planning is so damn easy
but u need, have to move & crawl then walk then run for all of it!
just do it!
"there is no failure, only delay to the road of success"...
ya this what i printed out & pasted it on my cpu casing since i was a student long time ago
and still run with it until now...

~my journey~

searching

hmmm...lately kind of searching but not sure what or where
while planning & packing, i'm searching for the uncertainty
while speaking with my succulent babies, i'm searching for more
while everybody is sleeping, i'm writing & searching for something
something which is not so sure, unclear, unknown
thinking & searching...both in the same field are they?
haha...i'll keep on searching in my long journey tomorrow
i love searching u know!
searching make u fresh & live ^_^ Walla!

travel raya

since last nite keep on thinking of possibility for travel raya

ya...travelling during hari raya-ing...u know...

means raya out of country & out of reach,

can it be? haha...perhaps...ya why not, aite?

lets plan for it, for next raya or next next next raya,

its okay as long as during raya...ameen.

travel raya planning ~dikazzz~

loving freely

hmmm...no wonder lots of teenagers love korean movies
i do think all because of the movies mostly all about loves
messy love, untangle love, unrestricted love, triangle love, sweet love
unconditional love, bla bla bla love...and mostly more than one love in one movie!
haha...ya people do love taking and watching on loves...
are u in love?
lucky if u are...and still lucky if u are not, yet...

for me...i love the free love,
love because u love, not because others,
love because u want to, not because forced to,
love when your heart want to love and be loved,
not love or be loved only, no one sided love...
life and love must be fair for each other aite?
and so do the people in love...

trust and fair on both sides, and the love will go on freely...
u will love more and more when u loving freely...
like the parents love their children freely...
freedom of loves...i love freedom, i love loves...

everybody loves love,
but...anybody hates love? perhaps...there is...
must be due to some logic or emotional reason aite?
or perhaps love did something...momentarily...black or white?
no matter what, love cannot be blamed for anything,
love is just a sweet word with a sweet meaning and sweet story,
so pls do not change the love to be bitter,
u choose the style and color and melody of your love,
love is free but pls appreciate it well,

i love u
~dikazzz~

i love succulents!

lalala...nowadays, especially along the period of nursing my mama,
i've become extra addicted to succulents and cactus!
yaaa...visiting to all nurseries around kota bharu
also went to some nurseries in cameroon highland
in order collecting some more succulents
for me to make the mini cacti garden ^_^
besttt! while my mama enjoying it too, she adds on more to her orchids collection!
so this raya if u come to my house
u can see some cacti & succulents in big and small pots
and so do the orchids, hanging sweetly with variety of colors ;)
well, hope can bring back to KL some of my succulent babies &
also the mini cacti gardens...
perhaps by in KL i'll start to visit some of the nurseries and add on my succulents & cacti collection!
who would love to accompany me plsss...? hihi >_<

trying takes time...

trying so many templates but hard to match what my heart like
at last got one Dream design but so many forbidden changes
hmmm...takes long time...
cant adjust the blog width
cant change the font size and colors
cant although tested on the html template
so, till then, this look has been applied
exploring for solution, hope for the best ^_^

revamp...

after revisited my Epitomes...
i think i want to do some make over...
some restyling, as been done by people when transferred to new house,
hehe...now choosing the new design,
lalalaa~~ just wait & see ya. Chow!

nearly 2 years lost! :p

wow..wow..wow! hi uoll out there...salam 23rd ramadhan 1435H...still reading? ^_^
ya i miss my Epitomes 'the diary' too...
and this is why i'm here this time! longed release..
nearly 2 years nowhere to write all thoughts in mind,
so tough and some regrets, but it's okay, my life is okay,
having good life but moving out from tmn desa to sunway piramid,
from apartment to a bigger house, 2 to 3 rooms, 1 to 2 bathrooms,
bigger kitchen dry & wet, triple the price and double the meter-square,
worth it, i think, although it's not a new condo,
it's okay, this is the sustenance, earnings, fortune from Him =)
Alhamdulillah...


btw, anaqi is still alone, he actually supposed to get a sibling on last June 2014,
same month as his birthday, but ya...
miscarriage on last Oct 2013 during raya haji time,
50-50 due to the accident I've involved, perhaps, He knows...

so, now i'm still in kelantan, nursing my mama for nearly 5 months,
depression due to pension, shocked when busy daily life transformed to no work,
glad she's is fine now, with abah by her side, both already free now!
I will be back to KL soon after raya,
back to KL, back to work, back for a new life in a new castle,
and new school for anaqi too! hope he will be fine by the time...

and another sharing...created 2 blogs while missing from Epitomes...
the quite old one - http://bijakvitamin.blogspot.com/
and the quite new one - http://takafulpedia.blogspot.com/

so till then, hope I will keep stick & cling with my Epitomes from now on...
♡ i am

thank you...

thanks & so much thanks!
for the cares and thinking of me
although perhaps it's just a little bit
but it means alot, huge for me
sometimes i miss valued for the hidden
perhaps because it's just a small piece & parcel
surrounded by the full of loves...
& that pieces & parcels pasting the holes
and complete the whole path
thanks & thanks in advance!

Wrongness...

when something is wrong,
in you, with you, related to you,
such as people around,
or anything, especially one that you love...
wrong in your heart and feelings...
or in ideas and thoughts,
maybe your stomach, body...
all these wrongness, erroneousness, will make your state of mental strain!
means tension!
and tension could brings stomachache!
instead of migraine...
but your mind can't stop thinking,
why, and how.....but if? bla, bla, bla...
it'll keep on going, with or without you nor yourself realize it!
well...it's not really well, rite?
never mind...maybe you just stay in your cave,
just let somebody with the warrant enters,
or just that special person who can give order to the unrulier you...
at the end...whatever!

Oh my...

My eyes shed tears in early morning,
While exploring images & videos of the Japan earthquake&tsunami,
Oh my...so erratic! And the tears out when thinking if,
If this catastrophe choose our place to park on...
Oh my...cannot imagine it, don’t want to!
And another thought pop-up,
Armageddon...perhaps is just around the corner...oh my!

my dear Anaqi...

Poor my dear Anaqi, he woke up in the middle of the night, suddenly crying unstop.

Abit weird thou, he never like this before...

Mummy & daddy become pretty nervous.

Stomach-ache? Nope! Fever? Nope! creepy-crawly bug bite off? Checked, nope!

Anaqi, why are you crying baby? No answer, just shed tears...

Mummy try this, daddy try that...until there’s something make him stop crying...

Yaa...at last, took out the ice-cream box from the fridge...

he plays with the box...mummy and daddy watching and pampering...until...sleep! =)

poor my dear Anaqi...mummy’s still thinking of the reason why......

discontented.

Ya ya...so discontented since I woke up this early morning, especially when thinking of these 2 things, my camera & the team I’m dealing with lately.

One story for my camera. End of last year, one of my colleague borrowed my beloved camera. And because of the good quality pic from it, he borrowed it again the time he went to Paris. My camera was just IXUS 70, not the expert SLR, but I was all the time satisfied with it since the first time I bought it in early year 2007, in Penang. Love it too much! Continue with the story, he lost my IXUS 70 when he was in Paris! So, as agreed before that, if you lost it, you replace it. He bought me IXUS 95 IS, before he even tell me first that my camera had lost! Actually I already had the feeling since he sms me asking for price of the IXUS 70 the time he’s in Paris. Whatever. But, from the day I got this new IXUS, until yesterday, every time I’m in a good mood to snap pic, I’ll be totally displeased with it! :’( so s**ks and far worst compared to my lost IXUS 70. Do you think I’m not good in using it? Or this IXUS 95 IS is s**ks!? What am I suppose to do now? Give it back to the person who lost it and ask for money? Or trade-in it and buy a new one which can fully satisfy my neediness of taking good pic? Uurrgghhh I miss my lost IXUS so much!! :’(

Second story, just wanna say that, I don’t like dealing with this team. Not good in communication and collaboration. But then asking for things which out of statement of work! Whatever! I’m speedily wanna finish this task asap! Done. Walla! @__@

My Anaqi =)

Yes, when you already a mum, your whole life now totally surrounding by “my baby, my baby and my baby!” If before this you were able to spend let say RM1000 to pamper yourself, doing meni and pedi, plus with facial treatment or spa, and buy some other stuffs for self satisfaction,  now, not anymore. Perhaps, out of that RM1000, only 10% of it for you, the rest all allocate to “my baby”. Yes, this is what I’m facing right now =) haha...great! another type of self satisfaction for a mum. When you spent all that you have to your dearly loved little HERO, my HERO, my Anaqi ^__^

What about you as a dad? Perhaps you will feel your money ‘lost’ a lots to, uncountable, when spending on baby’s drinks, baby’s foods, baby’s clothes, baby’s toys! Plus some other distributions on baby’s insurance and education finance. For my significant other, and me, because both of us are working, so we divide and spend together on all piece and parcel related to our Anaqi =) Facing and enjoying everything all together and balance, brighten your life thou. 3 of us happily ever. Plus, if before this mummy and daddy never think of pay for extra thing called ‘Astro’, but for you Anaqi, for your resource of learning other that High 5 & Ni Hou Kai Lan in every morning, now we registered for it =) haha...what a life...you pay, you get it! Love you. Walla!

New 2011, New update! =)

Salam & hello!

Wooo..it’s too long this time, nothing keep posted to my Epitomes, more than a year! J well...life become busier, just have tiny time to write small something to my FB and that’s all. But, sense of wanna write again comes back now, I think! Perhaps after received a comment from my manager on my way of communication with customers, not professional, due to the smiley face J that I included in the email...I just try to be close and slam, not too formal with customers thou...but, well, need to uphold the company’s image where I’m working with right now. Noted. Thanks for the advice thou. Whatever! =p

So, back to my Epitomes. Last post storied about my big transform in life. Married. And now, another change, I’m a mother, to a very cute little Izz Anaqi, my dearly loved baby boy ^__^ Just click on my FB to see my little HERO Anaqi! My darling hubby always brings the album of our HERO up to date. Anaqi just entered his 8^th month today!(his birthday June 29, 2010). Oh ya, I got one post in my FB on my little family & our little castle =) Ya, I stay in Iris Apartment at Taman Desa Off Jln Klang Lama now. Already bought the apartment, due to the high monthly rent, better buy it! At least now it belongs to my family! My property! calm and cool little castle =)

What else should I update? Oh ya, regarding my profession. Now I’m working with one IT company located at 11^th floor of PJ Trade Centre, Damansara Perdana. Still main support for the KPI Mgmt Tools named Oblicore Guarantee, and some others CA products. Now handling one project with Celcom network team. Future, will be having E2E project with Petronas, perhaps soon in another 3 months. I’m still new with this company and until now, I like it =)

Before I end this post, a little on my outdoor activity. Last one was climb Mount Kinabalu on June 2010. Future outdoor activity? Not sure yet. Want to! But, perhaps need to wait for Anaqi to be ready ^__^ heheee...by the way, he is actively all the time try to stand up instead of sit down and play, plus, he’s eager to climb also! Brings worries to mummy and daddy, afraid he’ll falls and cries, tired but it’s all fun! Watching your baby growing up so fast! =D till then...Walla!

il dolce far niente

Il dolce far niente,
that's why Epitomes stop for totally a year...

Il dolce far niente,
since i lost my way when something good had just began
but i'm still striving for the sky...

Il dolce far niente,
actually, it's nothing sweet, perhaps it just the sweet sentence...

p/s In Italian, it means "the sweetness of doing nothing"

long gap...

oh! nearly 2 months I'm silent from blogging...now I need to write! just wanna conclude what's happening during this long period of gap. lots of full-of-fun events happening along... celebrated hari raya Aidilfitri...followed by my truly special wedding ceremony on sept 23rd & 24th...plus by pre-honeymoon in Oct, as said by my beloved partner =D plus plus plus by 'jemputan pengantin baru' by all my friends and especially by relatives of 'my partner & me'...so, I've received many wedding gifts since before - during - after my wedding! yippie! ^__^ special thanks to everybody whoever involved with all these sweet lovely moments aite ;)

so, now I'm not single anymore, I'm with my partner, and this perhaps may, or sometimes may not, changes my activities in life. firstly, to all my friends, please don't worry, and do not astonish, I'm still can hang-out with all of you okay, my partner never say No to this kind of social activity okay =) so whoever wanna ask me out to watch movie or lepak2 please do not be shy or withdrawn to contact me okay. come on, what a life without friends aite ;)

next, the stories from me after this perhaps will change, it's still about me, and my activities, but plus, as a wife...and so on to as a mother, perhaps, sooner or later =p by the way, lots and lots of prays from all of you perhaps will make it earlier thou! =D Amin. Rezeki jangan ditolak... ^__^

another story, last week, I've completed my wish to watch CUCI The Musical Theater in IB, together with my partner, my sist, abg ibal, aumi & amir. enjoyed it so much. congratulations to hans isaac and all his team. well works done! perhaps I also saw one of my theater family member was there behind the stage =) bagus! hmmm...talking about my theater family, now I miss my beloved Along Azi, when is the right time to go to melaka and visit you ya along...? miss u so much. hope along n angah n mak abah semua la in good condition as always. by the way, datang KL visit abut habaq mai la, mane tau leh jumpa di KL ker if got chance! =) and, along nye plak bila ni? jangan duk senyap plak yer my along! ^__^ rindu!

what else, oh, FYI now I've moved to taman desa. living in a tranquil environment Iris Apartment which belong to a kindhearted owner. just beside the Taman Desa Waterpark! ^__^ Iris apartment is located just before you enter the waterpark area. if you want to visit me, just contact okay. now my house is so-so ready to receive some visitors...hehee... =) hmmm...perhaps will be a small party near to celebrate happy new year...perhaps! =p tengoklah camne okay. oh, before I stop, I think next story I'll write will be on pengalaman bila menduduki rumah baru, already prepared with some funny pics! soon okay! =p ...walla!

gumbira lagi! ^__^

setelah dirancang selama seminggu, akhirnya dari 5 menjadi 7, bersama bergumbira berkenalan berbuka puasa di kenny rogers midvalley arini! yey! (hati ku melonjak gumbira!!!) ^__^ ini peluang terakhir bagi kawan2 nk kenal PG and sebelum aku bertukar status =p happy sangat sebab my bro ade (abg ibal la sape lagi), my adik ade (aimi la tu...), my bbf ade ( Mr bussy wizzy Amirul), dan juga yang baru mendaftarkan diri pasangan bahagia amir & aumi! yey! yey! cukup 7 orang untuk berbuka dengan gumbira hari ini! =D sempat jugak sesi berkenalan bagi yang belum pernah jumpa my fiancee iyer... ^__^ happy bangat sama dengan happy time berbuka di nandos sunway piramid last 2 weeks...yang pastinya...THANKS TO ALL MY FRENS! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! ^__^ so, c u when i c u then. Walla!

yippie! ^__^

yippie because the last nite happy break fasting with my dear kak yus & kak wani in alamanda! =D wuuhuuuuu! dari awal jumpa sampai la nak balik asyik cerita cerita cerita & gelak gelak gelak! dari lepak2 tunggu berbuka sampai la makan sampai la lapar balik & pegi minum pulak lagi, happy sungguh! ^__^ mengubat rindu lama tak jumpa...teringat pulak happy moments time kami bertiga bekerja bersama di Celcom satu masa dahulu, di waktu bilik tempat kami bekerja kami jadikan disco ABBA! ahahahaa...best nye kerja happy2 macam tu kan akak2! =) and tak lupe juga, terima kasih banyak2 kepada kak yus for the wedding gift, thanks alot kak yus...especially for the book! ehehee...lagi thanks for the A&W float & curly fries =D kepada kak wani juga, terima kasih dalam memeriahkan lagi sesi berbuka puasa kita semalam! jangan lupe nanti jumpa lagi during my wedding okay =) I'll reserve the chocolates for you tau ^__^ dan semoga selepas ini sesi untuk berkaraoke or tengok wayang juga akan menjadi semeriah semalam okay =D yippie! love you both! till then...Walla!

Day 9.9.9

ahaks! I've just realized that today is Day 999...
well...09/09/09 laa...
anything special by today?
perhaps lots of weddings such as in 08/08/08?
hmmm...for me, nothing special until this time...
tonite perhaps? i don't even know yet or any =p walla!

wedding gift! ^__^

yippie! last nite I've received the 1st wedding gift! ^__^
it was from my beloved pet sist which I called my dear Aimi =)
thanks alot Aimi & i love you so well...

p/s nanti upload kan the pic aite! Walla!

main~main~

mood aku sekarang ialah bermain~main tukar template blog nih! ^__^

perhaps I'll stop changing when I found the satisfied one...

~panda eye ~

fuh! after a week of hectic life schedule, i think now my eyes already become like the 'panda eye'! @_@ huwaa...abit tired but all came with satisfactions =) especially i went through it all with my beloved fiancee =) by the way, memang la all those berbuka puasa plans semua related to him, semua nak jumpa dia la katakan =p tuan direktor dah lame nak jumpa PG, Ami from jakarta juga mau kenal sama PG, plus sesi berbuka beserta shopping ape2 yang patut untuk settle kan hal2 wedding yang mana belum cukup...fuuhh...lega & happy semua dah berpuas hati.
and tak lupe terima kasih kepada semua ya. happy sangat berbuka beramai2 terutama beserta si direktor & wife & baby comel dia, and my fren Azah plus my 'Jakarta bf' Ami =p wahaha...gumbira sungguh semua makan2 di Nandos Sunway Piramid, the fav place for both PG & me. Enjoyed sesi 'mencari Bonia' after that.
next, event attended was berbuka puasa di Palm Garden IOI Resort bersama PG's officemates. Now semua dah kenal siapa tunangnye si Hafizi nih =p ramai jugak yang nak hadir ke wedding kami nanti =) yang lucu nya sesi bergambar, mekasih la kenakan both PG & me...hehee...praktis amik gambo bila wedding kata Kak Ji =D
tak lupe juga to both PG & me close fren, Checker! ^__^ mekasih la akhirnya dapat kite bertiga duduk borak2 semeja semula setelah sekian lama! cet! ahahaaa...pun di Nandos juga, di MidValley! happy betul hati ini =)
last met up with Lat & Ida & all others rock climbers...event nite climb + BBQ + sahur nasi lemak di Damai Batu Cave! wahahaha...hujan2 pun layannn! ^__^ thanks my dear Lat & Ida & Ya...nanti2 kite jumpa lepak sekali lagi kay. At least lepas jugak rindu dah lama tak jumpa korang =)
begitulah seboknya & seronoknya aku dan partner ku selama partner ku di KL. Semalam dia dah pulang ke Kedah, kena sambung kerja di sana for the last week before raya, busy bak YB bak kata his officemates! =p oh, seminggu aku cuma pulang ke rumah untuk tido. Feel like lost connection pulak dengan my own housemates. iisshhh...rasa bersalah pun ade. But it all will be back to normal by today and so on sampai raya okay ;) lepas raya...hmm...will be another story =p Walla! ^__^