my holiday trip =)

well well...most of you already know my trip this time, just wanna have funs in Jakarta, gonna enjoy myself in Dufan (Jakarta Disneyworld) & Ancol Sea World & shopping in Mangga Dua, then follow by shopping in most FOs in Bandung, ahaha...actually more for soothing & cheering up my self thou (especially due to my new dizzy woozy big job under new Org!) ;-) not really in the mood of shopping after my short out-of-plan-shopping-trip to Melaka last week! =D hehehe...
btw, special thanks for all of your cares to all my friends who keep on reminding me to take care of my self while I'm on this holiday trip...thanks thou! I will as I always do okay ;-)

so below I put my most fav song for this moment - I'm Yours by Jason Mraz,
btw, the video is match with my holiday mood now thou!
and I special dedicate it for all this holiday trip members! ^_^ enjoy!

temperamental?

I just remember last night,
when suddenly someone known kidnapped me,
somebody who lives an unconventional and hedonistic life, I think!?
and bring me somewhere we know,
there having some words - mood swinger, temperamental & other rubbish-words!
till suppose to be Sex & The City at the end swung to The X Files,
ahahah...what a temperamental situation-for-a-moment!
so I dedicated the below lyric to the temperamental somebody...enjoy!

Everything But The Girl - Temperamental
This temperamental side,
The one you say that you can't hide.
D' you ever see yourself
The way it looks to someone else?
This temperamental trick,
The one you say you can't predict.
You're like an empty cup.
Forgive me if I don't wait up.
I don't get where you're coming from
What is real and what's put on,
What has stayed and what has gone.
How long will this thing go on and on?
What planet are you on?
Not the same one I am from.
Do I just waste my time?
You pour your heart on mine.
You think it screws you up.
Forgive me if I don't wait up.
I don't get what you're trying to say -
What is wrong and what's okay.
You beat yourself up one more time.
You trample on this fierce heart of mine.
I don't want you to love me.
I don't want you to love me.
I don't know what you want from me.
All this endless sympathy.
You beat yourself up one more time.
You trample on this fierce heart of mine.

p/s to the temperamental somebody - the above lyric is just for cari gaduh with u! =D

from melaka with loves...

ehehe...I'm back from Melaka, with loves! ^_^ loves from Along Azie & Mas, spend 2 days in Melaka, thanks for your times with me thou, I'll love you forever! =) besides, it's the loves of shopping! ahahaha...without any budget allocated, i bought some clothes, included another Active Camel bag :p i just can't say NO when i passed by my fav brands clothes! the designs in Melaka are different than KL! (sori aaa along...althou i need to save the money for next trip to Jakarta & Bandung by end of this week, it's totally not ur fault..it's totally my nafsu membeli yg tetiba high =D lagi pun designs tu semua takde kat KL! ehehe..sabar je la along ea...at least 'mega sale' will be a good reason for me to visit you again! wahahaha! nnt leh makan asam pedas yg best giler pedas tu lagi!)

p/s done last week - The Dark Knight. Will watch this week - Sex & The City.
p/s2 Mas, I'll wait for ur time to back to KL =)
p/s3 to Along Azie, the dialogs is for us:

Speaker: JULIET
O comfortable friar! where is my lord?
I do remember well where I should be,
And there I am. Where is my Romeo?
[William Shakespeare - Romeo and Juliet (1595)]

appreciate life!

in this early morning while ironing my work clothes...without any sign suddenly i realize that I'm crying!
of course i cant guess why, it's incidentally crying with my heart feeling something itchy...
For some reasons, I do think that the reality of life has really hit me today, really damn touch my heart and make me shed many tears. and...I'm wondering...wondering...how people appreciate their life?
In my thought, everybody does go through a period of time in which they think they’re worthless and their life is horrible and nothing will ever go their way. I think we don’t need to be suffering from depression and dismal, although we’re all prone to feeling stressed, tired, down and aimless. I also think that majority of people really don’t think exactly how lucky they are to be alive! Everybody looks like wondering through life with a thick cloud of fog covering their eyes!

On our quest for finding the perfect life, happiness should be the top priorities. So, learning to appreciate life is a very big aspect of that. We can be a happy person but to reach our highest potential of happiness we need to take the time to appreciate the life that we have!Life can become too much like hard work unless we remember to appreciate what we have and take time to smell the roses ^_^

p/s There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread. [Mother Teresa]
p/s2 "I'm sorry myself, now I know you don't need to think of other selves for too much, because they don't really appreciate it!"
p/s3 thanks to Amir & Anuar for the instant-out-of-plan The Dark Knight show last nite! ^_^
Memo:
I do think I'm more a guy's girl than a girl's girl. ;)

a life question...

Quote for today:
"U want your husband just take care of you but not much money or you want him to work hard and save more money to give you even better for your cost of living?" Choose which is better for you...between loves or money...

p/s you're the one who control works & time, not works & time control you! busy busy busy...reason or excuse?

Quote:
How do we measure our life, would we focus on just physical or soul-emotional? Do we count times of bliss and joy, pain and soreness?

“There are two worlds, the world we can measure with line and rule,
and the world that we feel with our hearts and imagination” (Leigh Hunt)

Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the moment that take our breaths away. Think of it...

p/s thanks to Tuan Direktor for accompanied me to watch Sepi last nite =)
p/s2 It's a good movie of love, lost & loneliness. I'm totally suggest it to be watched by all of you, teaches in how to appreciate LOVE and someone you LOVE...coz most of the time, you'll only realized it when you LOST it...how FALLIBLE we are!

happy & thanks ^_^

weeehuuu...today I'm averagely happy,
first when I received calls from Aimi my sweetheart,
so miss her much with quite long time haven't meet her!
and some emails from Brian, Fahmi & Frando, my frens in Jakarta,
oh, so glad they'll help me during my next trip to Jakarta & Bandung, soon! ^_^
and a short chat with one of my close fren Baem,
thanks, thanks & thanks to all of you for ur cares on me...
how lucky I am! =)

Quote:
kalau orang tu sayang kita, sayang tu akan sampai bila2,
tak kira la apa level sayang tu, yang pasti SAYANG,
kecuali la kalau sayang tu dah tukar jadi benci...

what i love

firstly, thanks to my fren which i call Joh, if not because of your be of interest to watch theater, it must be no other way for me to watch Bukan Dejavu last nite, the final nite, with you =D i am very proud on bringing whoever interested to watch theater =) especially whoever never ever watch theater! hihiii...eager to share theater world with everybody.

So by what not, here i put some videos on Moulin Rouge, two of the songs which I love and I'm listening to everyday since I watched the movie, the most ever musical theater movie which make me crazy all the time of it till now (besides Phantom Of The Opera of course!)...enjoy! ^_^





p/s who can accompany me to watch Sepi - stories of Love, Lost and Loneliness. (am i too late?)
Quote:
The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and to be love in return.

You really got a hold on me

hhmm...something badly happen to me today,
so i just have one purpose for online at this time,
just wanna dedicate this song to one person who said hate my word WHATEVER...
enjoy the song...thanks & sorry for my rudeness.
[i really really mean all the words in this song okay, special for you =p ]

Smokey Robinson - ...

she melancholy

yesterday she was in melancholy ness frame of mind, somebody making her feeling a thoughtful and gentle sadness...and she put herself under a gloomy character for nearly one whole day, but nobody knows, except me. she was thinking of her loves, where actually all her loves going on or went to? and does she actually be replied for her unconditional loves? maybe it's all just here-and-there-take-for-granted-everywhere...and i agreed with her, nowadays people always take everything for granted, and only realized the value when they lost it...worthless! and she just keep quiet since then...poor she, now she just choose to talk to her heart and herself, instead of talking to anybody although her love one, she said "i think he doesn't understand, or maybe does not want to, or am i not understand. he promised to change, i don't know does he really mean it since then. he said he loves me, and i love him too, does it true or just a sentence. now i my turn to be silent, coz he always did. although he sms me gudnite just now, i still quiet." and she sleep after my listening. by the way, only me can listen to her...sad she. don't worry, I'll try to calm you down and make you happy okay. and i promise I'll always be there for you, anytime! as always. =) and at least at the end she sleeps well.

By the way, now my story, I've watched The Hellboy last nite, and of course with my bff. Thanks thou! and I'm sorry Amir, i can't share her feelings with you, yet =p and special thanks for your cares Amir, honestly I don't know why your ex not anymore with you...done.

p/s for love nor money or for love or money?
p/s2 are you ready to finally give your heart the love, wisdom and protection it deserves? It's not just love that gets you through the truth of relationships.
p/s3 maybe Azah is rite - People make promises all the time. Why do people make empty promises? Because it's music to the ears? To pacify the person they are making the promises?

what's going on...

hmm...haven't write anything in one week time, a bit tired with new working style, learning and training for new big project with Celcom (if you wanna know what maybe you can visit www.oblicore.com), and at the same time still follow up some telco issues with some other operators. ok stop, that's my jobs! and you just can read... =p
by the way, although weary during working hours, out off it, still have time for some movies =) thanks a lot to Amir, who's "I'll always there for u" kind of best fren of mine ;) of course lots of you don't know who's Amir, he's my bf since standard one! =D and my bff till then! hihii...right, Amir!? as some release for me, in this month till today I've watched Kung Fu Panda twice, and Get Smart. and nearest-movies-on-the-list are Wanted, Sepi & Hancock, also one theater tittled Bukan Dejavu (Juhara Yaacob, Norish Karman, Jalaluddin Hassan etc). till now, done.

PD Trip June'08

ups...now i've a bit of time to write about my last trip, to Port Dickson, on 28th & 29th June'08, as invited for MMUian reunion organized by the famous-amous person named Zafril! ^_^ ahahahaa... =P and all become well enough with helps from the juniors erna, emy, neng, mai and etc lah =) hehehee...and all others just tolong sikit2 and makannn!! =D from this trip, I'm totally sure everybody was all fully enjoyed. It's just me who missed the banana-boat activity which been planned by my beloved cheNyah =) hehe...bukan ape, tak bawak baju spare la... :p don't worry, there will be next time, kn? ;) hihii...and the most special part was the 'ice-breaking-close-conversation' between all of us on the night after BBQ session, and because it's 'close', so nobody of us can write anything about it! ahaha...sounds like PnC right? yup PnC. kalau nak tau kena join la the next trip! ^_^ okay, for all of you who wanna see and dl the photos, please visit my multiply for it. and for more detail story, read it on Zafril blog and Zafril2. Daa...

p/s PnC = private & confidential
p/s2 to Zafril, thanks for this trip and sorry for what happened to your car :p lain kali biar aku drive, slamat skit =D
p/s3 to all of you who joined this trip, thanks & may we meet again in next trip okay! ^_^

quick quick!

wow! just in one day you can face some big changes! like what i'm facing today...from working under one company, then get attached to another one, one time under two and now, step into the new company. accepted. next, from application engineer, there is a chance to turn into technical marketing engineer, soon...well, still under consideration and testing period. but no matter what, i'm happy with all these changes, at least there'll be so many things to be learn! and that's what i like! till then =) hope for the better me ^_^

I am an art lover...

firstly, thank you very much to Amir for his invitation last nite, to TAKSU Gallery in Keramat (private gallery). This show involved fine artists from Malaysia & Singapore with different paints/artworks such as acrylic, mixed media on resin, acetic silicone (by Hafiz Razak, Amir's friend, the only artist in Malaysia with this artwork), mirrors and ect. Wow! I really enjoyed it, some paints come with such high feelings! Among all the paints, I love two artworks from Wong Chee Meng (mixed classic - modern with 3 layers! my thought la...) and at the same time, nice knowing new friends hanim, anuar, eddy, iskandar (boss green melon ni tau!) and etc lah! ^_^ tak lupe fahmi and ami yang memang dah kenal tengok wayang sama2 =D I can say now I already know Green Melon's family! =) and honestly, I love their office deco thou! Matched my fav ID! ^_^

p/s jangan lupe ajak lagi if there is any art show tau!
p/s2 I'm theater lover especially like PGL & P.Ramlee, and also Mulan Rouge & Phantom of the Opera. i love paints altho i'm not really good in it, i think :p i damn love photography sehinggakan long time ago my abah 'mgharamkn' camera from being touch by me! can u imagine how crazy i was at that time!? ahahaha...last2 i jugak yg belikan camera for my abah since i start working =)

change?

wow! lost from 'world wide web' access for nearly 1 week and i feel like be in the far away cave doing 'bertapa'! uurghh! but FYI, the 'cave' is Celcom PJ =P hehehe...doing some new big project there. And at the same time, first day I was there with the new team, it's ok, but then when suddenly one by one person walk into the team are the person who knew me before under another big project i'm still doing, they become confused and thought I've move out from my company and leave that big project! ahahahaa...it's like I've become 2 different person in Celcom now =P hehhee...just keep it silent and leave it this way for a moment =) nothing to be explained. it's just works.

p/s ups...muka aku berseri2 ea lately? Ntah, aku pun tak perasan pulak =P FYI, bukan kerana aku tukar any facial products although i'm thinking of Clinique or Biotherm or Shu Uemura, and also not berseri with the 'not yet reason' which is married...it's just that I've released myself from the 'nearly 2 months under strain life' duration. By the way, thanks for all of your concern =)

resting cars...

hmmm...in these two weeks time, every morning on my way driving out from my apartment area, I can see lots of cars still static in the parking lots, 1st thought "ramai cuti ke? eh, takkan la pulak..." but at last the conclusion is...hike in fuel prices consequence! now I think people choose to take public transport instead of self drive. What a day...everybody bought the cars to make the daily life easier but now...just keep it 'resting'...whatever!

p/s now I keep my heart 'resting'...

Quote:
ni ape kes plak nih..
wat muka sedih kat statuss.
hhmm...stress la
stress kt ofis still tak stop
ni agaknye ade gk stress gn si dia ni
org tanak couple dia nak, tp dh couple bukan nk jaga org elok2...
mcm tak couple je i rasa...baik takyah couple!
jgn stress sgt...
terbawak kot ngan keje...
dia mmg tak caring la
u lg caring dr dia
at least tanye i ok ke tak
try laa contact dia plak..ade x???
tanak!
merajuk aaaa plak

Friends & Thanks ^_^

well, some of you who close enough to me, know that I'm quite in downy-stressy mood for nearly 2 months now =( well, only you who take care of me knows the reasons of my pressure-life nowadays, right? ;) but, it's okay. In this kind of tension situation then you'll realize who's totally your friends, who close to you, who cares about you, who cannot see your moody-not-cute-little-face, who loves you...and thanks God because I can say I'm lucky of having such true friends who always there when you in need...it's not that always be besides you, but it's the one who doesn't make you feel like you are alone! especially who's listen to your stories, and calm you out of the strains, although just for a while, but it's really worth it! and here by this moment I would like to dedicate special thanks for Watt and Amir and Abg Iqbal...without three of you, maybe my face will not just only sad-cheerless-little-face, but it will be possible to turn into so-gloomy-with-panda-eyes-face! ^_^ so lucky me and so thank you very much my friends! I'm totally in love with you all the time till no end =) Peace! (V)

p/s thanks to my Fifi too...only you who always here besides me... ^_^

Malaysia (rakyat vs kerajaan)

bla bla blaa...too many not really good news happening nowadays,started from the GE12 and now with the recent hike in fuel prices which brings domino effect and set off like a chain of reaction --> making other things more pricey! and with no ideas, our Government giving of earnest advice for us to change our lifestyles in order to cope and survive. Oh...what a future life will be sooner... =(

Suddenly I'm thinking, instead of just us, 'rakyat yang sentiasa (maybe paksa-rela) menyokong kerajaan', why not they walk the talk (as Lim Kit siang said) first, as to share our burden. Why not they do some of the normal activities that 'we' are doing such like go to the wet & dry markets so that they can check out the latest prices of all daily needed things, besides go to the supermarket with RM200 and see what that value of money able to buy, and use public transport once in a while to look how good the performances of it, and go with the flow of traffic without the police escorts to share the 'feeling of traffic jam', and travel with economy class instead of business class and visit normal gerai or restaurants instead of hotel to be 'near to rakyat', and...ape2lah lagi yang mana boleh! (maybe you as readers out there can add more...) By the way, by doing all these kind of actions at least can help in understanding the rakyat (at the same time can know what rakyat mengumpat about kerajaan!) huh...! Whatever.

Quote:
Dalam cerita Pendekar Bujang Lapok lakonan P.Ramlee, Aziz Satar dan Jins Samsudin ada satu part - masing-masing tidak tahu membaca. Kaitannya ialahpandangan ketiga-tiga seniman agong ini terhadap UMNO adalah ketika Aziz Satar cuba membaca...

"Alif Mim Nun TENDANG Wau....Sarkis!!!"
Alif + Mim + Nun + Wau = UMNO
Dan beliau menyamakan UMNO = Sarkis

p/s so agak2 siapa badut2 nya…?

P.Ramlee for 2nd time! ^_^

hehehe...last nite, without any arrangement,
once again I went to Istana Budaya for P.Ramlee the Musical Theater!
yuhuhuu...^_^
and luckily, with Azah & her sist & Fakhri (my primary school friend),
fully enjoying it for the 2nd time!

p/s special thanks to Megat =)

days & stories =)

In the mood of bored, I write down the days & stories of me...

6th June'08:
Back home from office with so damn unwell condition. Damn you stupid-idiot-person-I-ever-faced! Just go to your doghouse and keep on feeding all your dogs! Sorry, I can't kowtow the siot person like you! pegi mampus la lu! Done! So, luckily at night, dated with Azah in Jusco Bkt Raja. We watched the movie Prom Nite. Ahahhaa...I can't totally accept ramai sangat yang menjerit during the show =D huhuu...then, with the total tiredness, while watching Forbes-The 20 Top Earning Women in Music, I slept in Azah's house. Next, suddenly woke-up in the morning when received a sms in my 014 number...well, only a person who knows this number =) thanks!

The top women on Forbes' Cash Queens list earned million between June 2006 to June 2007:
1) Madonna with $72 million
2) Barbra Streisand $60 million
3) Celine Dion $45 million
4) Shakira $38 million
5) Beyonce $27 million
6) Gwen Stefani $26 million
7) Christina Aguilera $20 million
8) Faith Hill $19 million
9) Dixie Chicks $18 million - famous with anti-war, anti-Bush!

7th June'08:
Quite tired during the day, but enjoyable at night! ^_^
11am brunch with azah in kopitiam. 1pm drive to Port Klang and picked-up my cousin. Back home at near to 3pm and sleep! woke-up at nearly 5pm. Early dinner at 6pm then...ready for P.Ramlee the Musical theater! ^_^ with so damn excited! 7.45pm straight to Istana Budaya. Nearly 3 hours enjoying the theater with the one who 1st time watching theater...at the end he just said..."teruja..." ahaha...berbaloi la coz I bought the most expensive tickets for both of us! "Takpe...I belanja..and frame this ticket as memoir ok." ahaks! The most excellent parts was during the time Noorizan fighting with P.Ramlee & when Remy and Sally tackling each other! so enjoyable! well done! =D just straight back home after the show. ahaha.. =)

8th June'08:
Just relaxed in house while eating and playing Paradise pat salon! I'm so damn addicted to this game! besides Diner Dash and Frenzy Pizza =D ahahaa...forget about my fav game Pharaoh =P then suddenly received calls from my beloved friend, Watt. So, she picked-me-up and we just enjoyed our dating in Midvalley. Eating and talking and visit the pet shops. After dinner at Jusco asam laksa, Watt send me back home. At home, instead of keep playing the pet salon game, I watched Sex & The City season 1 & 2...till I sleep.

The dazzling musical theater, produced by the excellent team of Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical, story of legendary P.Ramlee whose outstanding body of work in film and music, and artistic genius survives & still green till today. The theater show back in time to the glory days of the 40's 50's, and 60's with so superb elaboration of sets and props, stunning costumes and live music featuring some of the Ramlee's popular pieces - with a focus on his loves, passions and personal life. P.Ramlee The Musical featured talented stars which are Musly Ramlee as P.Ramlee, Liza Hanim as Saloma, Melissa Saila as Noorizan, Atilia as Junaidah & Emelda as Azizah.

p/s Thanks abg iqbal for your helps last night. Nnt kite dating lagi ok =)
p/s2 thanks to Brandon for your sms & phone calls! ^_^
p/s3 thanks to Yusfi & Baem for you cares! I'm in a well condition for this moment =P

Uncertainty

Hmm...I'm just here to write down a memo. Walla! Thanks.

Memo: I'm tired of the uncertainty and doubt that comes from not knowing how the people in my life really feels...and how they're not knowing how I really feels.

Fuel & consequences

Ya ya ya...yesterday, 5th June 2008, can be say was the 'best ever special date' since our 'special' PM working-so-hard-ruling our country. and as one of the big-bang consequences, all beloved rakyat jelata berterima kasih by saying "damn you PM! and bla bla blaa..." so whatever! at first i don't wanna care but at last i do have to care coz it's does brings effects on-to everybody!

p/s please read sinis thought from Fendi Pak Lah dan Rekod Gemilangnya
p/s2 What's Dr M says... Oil Price
p/s3 Comments from Anwar Ibrahim Harga Minyak Melambung!
p/s4 also read feelings from Azah What will you do now that the oil price hiked up so much?

life goes on...

yup! yup! this is the matter which i want to write down after quite long 'lost' for a week and plus...life is going on and on...with and without all the things we want or we hate, we're searching for or we incidentally received, we love or we don't need, positive and bad, goes on further in and out, same and different and bla bla blaa...lots and complexes to think and write about! Messing! Chaotic! @_@

p/s orang tua pesan, kalau sayang, semua boleh dilihat melalui perbuatan...duit boleh dicari, kasih dan sayang tak boleh dibeli...
p/s2 aku pesan, walau bagaimana sekalipun, kena CAKAP! kalau tak cakap, ada kemungkinan TAK TAU.
p/s3 aku pesan lagi, kalau sama tu mungkin bosan, kalau lain tu lebih menarik...

Memo:
ah'ha...dont worry! u r not alone! ^_^ i'm also a lone-ranger like u, and i do think we're always enjoy it, right?
i know, i know, u r in a down mood lately, actually it's just...what can i say...sometimes, especially when we are totally tired, we do need time on our own, like hiding for a while in our own cave kind of...we need some spaces for us to settle down what's on our mind which make us cant stop thinking! understood! it's just that, dont worry...and what u can do is...maybe search for one good listener and share everything that u r feeling now...it's not suppose to b ur best fren...believe me, u'll be released of all the worries after that! =) and at the end, u'll realize it's actually not really hard ;) daa...

teruja... @_@

wow! lately when I'm reading lots and lots of different kinds of, genres of blogs and bloggers, I'm becoming teruja...eager to, interested to...sampai pening, in thinking of lots and more things i would like to write out...but...can you imagine when you are hungry and suddenly in front of served with lots and lots of foods, meals and drinks, included together with all your fav chocolates and cakes and juices bla bla blaa...which will you choose? will you eat first then drink or vice versa or multiple? you will finished it all or just eat small pieces then another pieces and so on...? or maybe you'll eat want you want then keep it all others? ahaah, multiple choices of actions! so...at the end actually maybe you just dream it all or just watch it and leave! ahaah...understand what I mean? @_@ teruja...

p/s these days I'm feeling too swamped by too many things...I'm getting frequent paranoia that hit me out of somewhere...my brain can't stop thinking! even in my sleep! @_@ could the time give me some breathing space?

tsumaranai yooo... @_@

ok ok I'm writing now... =P thanks for all of your supports to encourage me to keep on writing...ya as most of you, my friends, said "see...lots of things you are able to speak out and all are good if you can write it all in your blog so that whoever with no opportunity to listen can at least read it!" ehehee...ok I'm agree with that but, there is a but, I'm able to write as fast as I'm thinking nor speak! can you get that? huhuhuuuu...I'm trying and it'll take time.

by the way, lately and since I enter May'08,my life change to tsumarai situation, I mean I'm bored in lately boring situation. everyday quite relax with less jobs to do but just some short time with sudden emergency-works-to-be-done-fast...having more time to eat and eat...instead of keep on studying on latest updates in telco world such as WiMAX & LTE & Roaming & etc,at the same time i can focus on doing private works like searching for movies & songs, reading one blog then jump to another blogs, searching for my most wanted books, still looking for any part time works with can fulfill my free spaces, enjoying learning on psychology & mind tests & cosmetics-cop & health & investment & bla bla blaa, resulted my mind loaded with lots of things to think of...at least i can make my mind 'hectic' instead of myself which is now I put under boring mood! which also resulted with some pelik kind of thing seperti kesalahan dlm pertuturan seharian, for example, orang cakap 'mandi kerbau' aku cakap either mandi ayam or mandi badak, 'bertunang' aku cakap 'bertenang', 'surat kabar' aku pronounce 'surat k-bar' etc...included some irregular actions seperti makan banyak ayam sedangkan I'm not chicken lover, dan sudah pandai makan sotong gergasi, I mean sotong yg besar tu sedangkan sebelum ni I'm totally can't accept that sotong! ^_^ perubahan yg lain ialah, in office dari seorang engineer yg busy bertukar menjadi seperti admin yg bored...in house aku sudah bercampur gaul dengan housemates yg membosankan, out of anywhere aku sudah berjaya menghabiskan bacaan my fav haruki murakami's novel entitled Norwegian Wood since I bought it on last Jan 2006!! yey yey! can you imagine how long I took to finished reading this book!? itu membuktikan aku memang read it whole with all my heart & soul! buku tu memang comes with feelings la...ups! it's not book of love story orait, it's a story of life. next I'll buy maybe Sputnik Sweetheart or Dance Dance Dance or The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, wait & see...

some more, beside this boring kind of life, thanks for some of you who tried to take me out of this boring nest =) all the times, I do need someone to share the whole 'what's happening' in me, but usually, let me repeat this sentence again, "we'll get someone which we don't want to..." yup it's true, then that one which at first we don't want, end up to be the one which we need the most...all the time...along the time...and can you imagine if the one we need the most is 'lost'? or just kejap ade kejap takde? or 'just see you when I see you'...? or like "I can't feel that I'm having you"...ahaah...whatever! "ok, whatever".

p/s I dedicated the last paragraph to the one who hates my "ok,whatever"

If I cant help falling in love with you...

Quote:

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay, Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Woman needs...

Today, I want to represent all women to let the men know what we really need especially in a relationship, I mean true relationship which comes with loves. Women always wonder what men really want in a relationships, and you want to know something? Men actually wonder the same thing. So for you men out there, below can be the 'expensive' tips...which actually not all of you men can or able to do it well...but it's still all right, as long as you try it with your partner,and I'm totally sure she'll love it and she'll loves you more! ^_^

1. Woman wants to be understood and respected. Mostly, women want men to understand how they feel, plus with be respected. Woman needs their man to hear her out and allow her to share her feelings, don't really need her man to solve it, because she actually can handles her problems on her own. Instead, women just want the man in their lives to understand what they're going through, what's happening to her, and if can, everything related to her! By the way, ignoring or putting your partner down isn't going to foster respect in the relationship!

2. Woman needs to be loved and cared. Mostly, woman needs to feel loved by her man, needs to know that her man truly loves her, and if can, above anyone else. She needs to feel like her partner cares for her. When she's overwhelmed, she needs her man to show that he cares by helping to ease her load. If she's sad, she needs to know that her man cares about what is happening to her and what she's feeling. A relationship is a serious commitment, so when she knows where're loves and cares, she will continue with the commitment.

long & lose & appreciate

in a long relationship, you tend to take for granted many small but meaningful things.
those small but meaningful things, you will only appreciate them when you lose them.

helping & helped.

Men mistakenly expect women to think, communicate, and react the way men do; women mistakenly expect men to feel, communicate, and respond the way women do. Are you forgotten that men and women are supposed to be different?? So a result the relationships are filled with unnecessary friction and conflict!

Memo:
lately received some 'relationship conflicts' which need helps,
so let me help by...ready...now follow me slowly...
now stop thinking of it! I mean the conflict which you're facing now,
then relax and control your breath & calm your mind...fuuuuhhh...okay...
next, rethink of what's happening, again...
but this time look at it as one short 'movie' or like a trailer of a movie...
and you're as the audience...now just give your honest comments for 'the movie'
then try to think what should 'they' do to release the conflict...
got it? now apply the ways to yourself...
remember...think with the positive ways orait!
and together in a cheerful self-ways... ^_^
by the way, all of us want it to be positive right?
and according to the Law of Attraction, we order positive, we'll get positive! and vice versa...walla!

One hour to live...

Memo:
If you had one hour to live and could make just one phone call, who would you call? What would you say? And why are you waiting?

Relationship...

today is a happy day for me, (although inside of me there is something wrong which was just happened in last few days that make my heart hurt and my feeling is sad all the way till now... just forget it,) this time i just interested to write down one good thing happened...

let me put the situation as a girl and a guy in a quarreling-mood...this is the common-bad situation that always happen in a relationship, for couple, or best friends...at the end, you want to know how and what's the best way to settle it? just go though the below dialogs:

Girl:
"u always thought of yourself as a loving person, but you actually had been just a fair-weather friend! as long as I'm happy and nice, you loved back. But if i was unhappy or upset, you would feel blamed and then argue or distance yourself..."

Me: I told the guy do not leave the girl. And at the end...the guy thanked me as below:

Good guy:
That day, for the first time, I didn't leave her. I stayed, and it felt great. I succeeded in giving to her when she really needed me. This felt like real love. Caring for another person. Trusting in our love. Being there at her hour of need. How had I missed this? She just needed me to go over and hold her. But as a man, I didn't know that touching, holding, and listening were so important to her...

quote:
"Right now I'm in pain. I have nothing to give, this is when I need you the most. Please, come over here and hold me. You don't have to say anything. I just need to feel your arms around me. Please don't go..." and the husband walked over and silently held his wife. "She wept in my arms. After a few minutes, she thanked me for not leaving. She told me that she just needed to feel me holding her."

Memo:
it is so important for a couple not to misinterpret and mismanage the stress in their daily lives, because all the reactions are ultimately can affect their relationships. actually for you girls, it's not that he's just not into you, he needs to fulfill a biological need. so do for guys, it's not that she wants to henpeck you, she also has a biological drive. so how a guy's withdrawal is actually a natural way for him to replenish his depleted testosterone levels and restore his well-being, and how a girl's need for conversation and support helps her build her own stress-reducing hormone, oxytocin.

Law of attraction

as been asked by some of my friends regarding my YM status, so here i would like to write down what and why 'law of attraction' ^_^

started in year 2004, I've been attracted by this topic due to my self studying of EQ & SQ while searching of 'coincidence' =P actually by that time my mind looked like doubt of 'coincidence'...because as been understood, all stories of us had been written, well, like a script of a long long story and all of us are the characters in the story who's acting accordingly to the script bla, bla, blaa...something like that. so, I've read lots of articles and indirectly jumped to this subject matter.

the law of attraction I can define as 'like attracts like', means as everything that happens to you is like you attract it all to yourself, by yourself. no matter good or bad. like you're putting out orders, consciously or unconsciously. let me give an example - you are in pizza hut ordering a pizza, in your mind of course you fully expect the pizza which you'll get served the way you've imagine and want it to be, right? so, that is law of attraction. everything you focus on (order a pizza) can have an effect on your life (you'll get a pizza). it's like we attract into our lives the things we want, that is based on what we're thinking and feeling. we create our own circumstances by the choices we make in life, and the choices we make are fueled by our thoughts. the feelings that the thoughts generate are what actually attract things into our lives. in order to attract the things you want into your life, you have to place the right order. Visualizing your future life can help to hone your thoughts and feelings toward the things you want, so your thoughts, feelings and actions all have to be firing simultaneously in the same direction. Hmmm...mcm when you're talking about action, it must be about walking in the direction which you want.

by the way, according to law of attraction, there is no such thing as a 'coincidence', and this drag me in. everything in the world is made up of energy, which is controlled by thoughts and feelings. so you are sending out signals (orders) and these signals attract like energy to you. it's fact that everything happens by principles and laws in our universe. and so consequently, inside of ourselves, we do having an absolutely unlimited power, realize it or not. there are 3 simple steps in law of attraction - Ask. Believe. Receive. Alaa...sepertimana yang selalu kita buat setiap hari. solat dan berdoa, percaya dan beriman, maka pasti akan dilimpahi rahmat =)

ok, i'm feeling dizzy now...pening membuat penerangan law of attraction! =P hahahaa... tak paham pandai2 la tanya. Done!

Memo: ralat itu normal.

it's delicate?

you hate to bring the umbrella,
although you know it will rain,
don't acting you're independent,
and you are all innocent,
mulish and stubborn!
stop blaming yourself,
and don't doubting this and that,
please stop denying,
instead you really need it,
perhaps, still you are not?
at the end, you just realized,
your heart is delicate...nostalgic!

Memo:
picture meeting your lover a little later than convenient...perhaps.
the happiness will have shapes when being shared with someone.

OMG! Hmmm..?

in passed 2 weeks, I mostly spent my whole office-hour-durations in-office. Seldom to sites. So, mostly doing readings...on my fav topics like IQ, EQ & SQ, brain & psychology, law of attraction, men Mars women Venus, then blogs by blogs and some forums. read all any post which attracts me, especially that encourages me to think! Erratic or eccentric kind of. I'm an open-thinking kinda person, a self-contained nonchalantly reader and blogger ^_^ it's just that, most of the time, my brain always fulfilled with so many thoughts which most of it I want to speak-write it out but I'm not apt or fast enough to speak-write it out!! @_@ uurrgghhh! then ended like frozen contemplations! maybe because I'm not good enough in writing, perhaps...

p/s Malaysian lesbian? Read...
p/s2 Politic thinker? Read...
p/s3 latest blog I read - love.hate.life.angel - Read...
p/s4 heavy writer? Read...
p/s4 polygamy? Read...
Memo:
In the guy's mind, the withdrawal scenario usually goes something like..
“Whoa! When did this turn from fun into a ton of work? Things have been great, but now it feels “different” because she's unsatisfied and pushing on me to define our relationship…”
“And I HAVEN'T EVEN DECIDED what I want exactly, or what the heck it is that I'm feeling here…”
“And now that the chemistry and attraction we used to have has changed! I guess “the magic” is gone…!”
Men can sure be clueless idiots that actually do need help to notice the dumb things they're doing.

Today is Earth Day!

change!

hhmm...lately keep on thinking of doing some changes,
changes in me, myself, my life...
maybe I'm bored enough with some kinda boring things surrounding me,
maybe I have to jump to another ship,
maybe I need to be lone-ranger again as I was,
maybe I want to go out of this space of mine for a while,
maybe to underwater world, or upper sky world,
or maybe I supposedly go with Lat & Ivy to UK,
perhaps...perhaps...
but, I'm afraid that...
once I start changing,
lots of things will change!

noted: Live for the sake of living. Give for the sake of giving. Love for the sake of love. Learn because you can.

tanjobi omedeto to me soon!

Reminder...

waduhh...lots of my frens out there typing my blog address wrongly,
it's triple Z okay...if double Z, it will go to another new blog,
I don't know to whom it belongs to,
looks like the owner maybe Indonesian ;)
maybe...
by the way, to all readers, thanks in advance! ^_^

p/s for my photos, visit my multiply :D
p/s2 for those who advice me to add chat widget in my blog, I will. Just wait & see okie ;)

Fuuhh... ^_^

yuhuuu...! I'm back! ^_^ and feeling sooo released!
like with hunk of cheese, and square of chocolate and puff of perfume!
hehehee...I mean that I'm back to normal now, no more outstation to go till end of May, can just walking and working just around 'my daily life places' ;) it's just that...hmmm..now thinking of my gf, my BEE, need to be serviced! as been postponed since last 2-3 weeks!

So now I wanna complete something from what I've done in East Malaysia - conclude my short trip to Kuching & KK:

2-April-08, 'run' to LCCT from 6.30am. Breakfast in McD. Meet new friend - Rubecca, eating and talking non stop until we need to separate, she to KK, me to Kuching. Arrived in Kuching Airport at 1130. Waiting for Maxis people, then by car to Maxis TOC in Jln Bintawa Daya, before that, lunch in famous restaurant named Nurvogue, most of the meals are delicious! and that was the 3rd time I ate there. Next, trained Maxis engineers for Nethawk 3G protocol analyser, done with online monitoring and testing. 1800, one of us checked-in to Holiday Inn. Then, dinner in my fav place - Topspot, followed by checked-in to my fav Somerset Hotel ^_^ Around 2030, my ex-roomate, Wiena the Sarawakian picked-me-up and she brought me to quite unique-design restaurant named Trivolly Garden. Had supper - laksa sarawak! fuhh! tasted like soup pekat fulled with herbs! next jalan2 to Kuching Waterfront and snapped some pics till 2315! :D Thanks Wiena. By the way, regreted because I've to cancel from buying the famous Sarawak ikan masin, takut berbau bila ke KK nanti...huhuu...kempunan jer la...

3-April-08, hotel breakfast time till 1030. Then walked to Kuching waterfront again, snapped some pics again, till crossed the road to the shops in front of the waterfront. Wow! lots of arts thingy and handicraft and jeweleries and most of it come with unique designs and shapes! I just bought one sand stone bracelet and a t-shirt printed with map of places to visit around Sarawak. 1300, took taxi to the airport, lunch in restaurant named OneOnly inside the Kuching airport. Next, departure at 1505 and arrived in KK International Airport at 1640. My cousin picked-me-up and brought me to makan petang in area near to Promenade Hotel. 1830 I've checked-in and relaxed in the deluxe room! Luckily I got room with special-view so not to forget snapped some pics! at the same time merenung matahari yang sedang terbenam...so damn beautiful and I'm failed in catching the real view into my camera! huhuhuuu...SLR, SLR, that's the only thing running in my mind at that time! Next, rehat2 watching TV then siap2 to go out. Bosan la. Altho I've been told by Maxis people the training gonna be on 0030 midnite and I've planned to sleep early, but it's so boring so I just selamba like lone-ranger walk to the newest shopping complex nearby. Walked around for nearly 2 hours, I bought one Vincci flat slipper and straightly replace my shoe with it, then bought my fav 1901 hotdog, tapaw and with fast paced to hotel in hungry mode and makan! 2300 I slept and forced to wake up an hour later! uurrgghh! in sleepy mode to Maxis KK TOC in Jln Tuaran Inanam. Trained the engineers till 0330 then back to my sweet room and sleep! Tired!

4-April-08, checked-out from Promenade at 1200. While waiting for my cousin to pick me up at 1500, I walked to Center Point Sabah shopping center. Wow! got special promotion from Nike and Adidas! altho still same as regular prices, at the end I bought Nike Fit-Dry swim wear :p and nearly buy Adidas latest training shoe Adizero! expensive! and so comfortable! uurrgghhh! I force myself not to go to the ATM machine! sabar jer la... :D So, next, with my cousin, he brought me to makan then search for regular hotel just for one nite rest.

5-April-08, 0645 my cousin jemput me and start out 2 hour journey to Kundasang - kaki Gunung Kinabalu. Wow! the sceneries along the way, beautiful! we stopped at some places to snapped pics especially pic of Mount Kinabalu of course and unluckily my camera battery level nearly zero! damn! Breakfast near Ranau area then went to Poring Hot Spring Recreation Area. Main target was the canopy walkway. Cannot take pics laa...but still fun and enjoying! gayat jugak la...tinggi wooo!=p next relaxed and rendam kaki di kawasan air panas...1200 noon, start to balik because my cousin ada kelas at 1500. Oh, my cousin is the lecturer in Politeknik KK ;) So, lunch then Abg Man send me to his gf's house, Kak Ernie. So, I just lepak in the house alone coz Kak Ernie also having class at that time. I siap2kan diri, relax while watching 2 movies - Ice Skating and Knots. Best jugak la movie tu =) Next, 2030, Abg Man jemput Kak Ernie and me and ready for dinner! and because he knows that I totally love seafood, he brought me to Gayangs restaurant. Waaaa...banyak pilihan tuuu...semua hidup2 tau! including weird kind of shellfishes! lastly, as been courages by Kak Ernie, I ask for my most fav lobster and mangrove shrimps (ketam bakau) and prawn and jelly-vege which I forgot the name. And all just cost us RM230++ =D fresh seafood with suitable price! nearly 2300, back home and watched Sky High with Kak Ernie till sleep!

6-April-08, plan for snorkeling has been canceled due to some reason :( so, around 1100, Abg Man pick me, thanks to Kak Ernie, then to Philippine Market. Waaa...because of its my fav place, I bought the Swarovski crystal bracelets! one for mama, one for my sist and 2 for me! ^_^ and at last my money just tinggal 3 ringgit! My cousin just gelak! wahahahaa! Next, late lunch at Tangjung Aru beach. 1700 moved to KKIA, and I departed at 1830, arrived in KLIA at 2145. And 1 and half hour after that, arrived home, kemas2 and ready to sleep! so my happy journey end! =) Happy Wappy!

p/s I'll upload the pics when I've done editting it okay ;-)

out of KL for a while...

yuhuu...to all frens out there,
just for your information,
I'll be 'lost' for a while...
I mean I'll not be in KL start from tomorrow until Monday,
I'll be in East Malaysia,
working and enjoying ^_^
plus release tension and be alone,
I mean alone for just a few days ok,
do not worry, as all of u know,
I'm independent kinda girl...got used to it!
so...CHOW! (^_^)