I am an art lover...

firstly, thank you very much to Amir for his invitation last nite, to TAKSU Gallery in Keramat (private gallery). This show involved fine artists from Malaysia & Singapore with different paints/artworks such as acrylic, mixed media on resin, acetic silicone (by Hafiz Razak, Amir's friend, the only artist in Malaysia with this artwork), mirrors and ect. Wow! I really enjoyed it, some paints come with such high feelings! Among all the paints, I love two artworks from Wong Chee Meng (mixed classic - modern with 3 layers! my thought la...) and at the same time, nice knowing new friends hanim, anuar, eddy, iskandar (boss green melon ni tau!) and etc lah! ^_^ tak lupe fahmi and ami yang memang dah kenal tengok wayang sama2 =D I can say now I already know Green Melon's family! =) and honestly, I love their office deco thou! Matched my fav ID! ^_^

p/s jangan lupe ajak lagi if there is any art show tau!
p/s2 I'm theater lover especially like PGL & P.Ramlee, and also Mulan Rouge & Phantom of the Opera. i love paints altho i'm not really good in it, i think :p i damn love photography sehinggakan long time ago my abah 'mgharamkn' camera from being touch by me! can u imagine how crazy i was at that time!? ahahaha...last2 i jugak yg belikan camera for my abah since i start working =)

change?

wow! lost from 'world wide web' access for nearly 1 week and i feel like be in the far away cave doing 'bertapa'! uurghh! but FYI, the 'cave' is Celcom PJ =P hehehe...doing some new big project there. And at the same time, first day I was there with the new team, it's ok, but then when suddenly one by one person walk into the team are the person who knew me before under another big project i'm still doing, they become confused and thought I've move out from my company and leave that big project! ahahahaa...it's like I've become 2 different person in Celcom now =P hehhee...just keep it silent and leave it this way for a moment =) nothing to be explained. it's just works.

p/s ups...muka aku berseri2 ea lately? Ntah, aku pun tak perasan pulak =P FYI, bukan kerana aku tukar any facial products although i'm thinking of Clinique or Biotherm or Shu Uemura, and also not berseri with the 'not yet reason' which is married...it's just that I've released myself from the 'nearly 2 months under strain life' duration. By the way, thanks for all of your concern =)

resting cars...

hmmm...in these two weeks time, every morning on my way driving out from my apartment area, I can see lots of cars still static in the parking lots, 1st thought "ramai cuti ke? eh, takkan la pulak..." but at last the conclusion is...hike in fuel prices consequence! now I think people choose to take public transport instead of self drive. What a day...everybody bought the cars to make the daily life easier but now...just keep it 'resting'...whatever!

p/s now I keep my heart 'resting'...

Quote:
ni ape kes plak nih..
wat muka sedih kat statuss.
hhmm...stress la
stress kt ofis still tak stop
ni agaknye ade gk stress gn si dia ni
org tanak couple dia nak, tp dh couple bukan nk jaga org elok2...
mcm tak couple je i rasa...baik takyah couple!
jgn stress sgt...
terbawak kot ngan keje...
dia mmg tak caring la
u lg caring dr dia
at least tanye i ok ke tak
try laa contact dia plak..ade x???
tanak!
merajuk aaaa plak

Friends & Thanks ^_^

well, some of you who close enough to me, know that I'm quite in downy-stressy mood for nearly 2 months now =( well, only you who take care of me knows the reasons of my pressure-life nowadays, right? ;) but, it's okay. In this kind of tension situation then you'll realize who's totally your friends, who close to you, who cares about you, who cannot see your moody-not-cute-little-face, who loves you...and thanks God because I can say I'm lucky of having such true friends who always there when you in need...it's not that always be besides you, but it's the one who doesn't make you feel like you are alone! especially who's listen to your stories, and calm you out of the strains, although just for a while, but it's really worth it! and here by this moment I would like to dedicate special thanks for Watt and Amir and Abg Iqbal...without three of you, maybe my face will not just only sad-cheerless-little-face, but it will be possible to turn into so-gloomy-with-panda-eyes-face! ^_^ so lucky me and so thank you very much my friends! I'm totally in love with you all the time till no end =) Peace! (V)

p/s thanks to my Fifi too...only you who always here besides me... ^_^

Malaysia (rakyat vs kerajaan)

bla bla blaa...too many not really good news happening nowadays,started from the GE12 and now with the recent hike in fuel prices which brings domino effect and set off like a chain of reaction --> making other things more pricey! and with no ideas, our Government giving of earnest advice for us to change our lifestyles in order to cope and survive. Oh...what a future life will be sooner... =(

Suddenly I'm thinking, instead of just us, 'rakyat yang sentiasa (maybe paksa-rela) menyokong kerajaan', why not they walk the talk (as Lim Kit siang said) first, as to share our burden. Why not they do some of the normal activities that 'we' are doing such like go to the wet & dry markets so that they can check out the latest prices of all daily needed things, besides go to the supermarket with RM200 and see what that value of money able to buy, and use public transport once in a while to look how good the performances of it, and go with the flow of traffic without the police escorts to share the 'feeling of traffic jam', and travel with economy class instead of business class and visit normal gerai or restaurants instead of hotel to be 'near to rakyat', and...ape2lah lagi yang mana boleh! (maybe you as readers out there can add more...) By the way, by doing all these kind of actions at least can help in understanding the rakyat (at the same time can know what rakyat mengumpat about kerajaan!) huh...! Whatever.

Quote:
Dalam cerita Pendekar Bujang Lapok lakonan P.Ramlee, Aziz Satar dan Jins Samsudin ada satu part - masing-masing tidak tahu membaca. Kaitannya ialahpandangan ketiga-tiga seniman agong ini terhadap UMNO adalah ketika Aziz Satar cuba membaca...

"Alif Mim Nun TENDANG Wau....Sarkis!!!"
Alif + Mim + Nun + Wau = UMNO
Dan beliau menyamakan UMNO = Sarkis

p/s so agak2 siapa badut2 nya…?

P.Ramlee for 2nd time! ^_^

hehehe...last nite, without any arrangement,
once again I went to Istana Budaya for P.Ramlee the Musical Theater!
yuhuhuu...^_^
and luckily, with Azah & her sist & Fakhri (my primary school friend),
fully enjoying it for the 2nd time!

p/s special thanks to Megat =)

days & stories =)

In the mood of bored, I write down the days & stories of me...

6th June'08:
Back home from office with so damn unwell condition. Damn you stupid-idiot-person-I-ever-faced! Just go to your doghouse and keep on feeding all your dogs! Sorry, I can't kowtow the siot person like you! pegi mampus la lu! Done! So, luckily at night, dated with Azah in Jusco Bkt Raja. We watched the movie Prom Nite. Ahahhaa...I can't totally accept ramai sangat yang menjerit during the show =D huhuu...then, with the total tiredness, while watching Forbes-The 20 Top Earning Women in Music, I slept in Azah's house. Next, suddenly woke-up in the morning when received a sms in my 014 number...well, only a person who knows this number =) thanks!

The top women on Forbes' Cash Queens list earned million between June 2006 to June 2007:
1) Madonna with $72 million
2) Barbra Streisand $60 million
3) Celine Dion $45 million
4) Shakira $38 million
5) Beyonce $27 million
6) Gwen Stefani $26 million
7) Christina Aguilera $20 million
8) Faith Hill $19 million
9) Dixie Chicks $18 million - famous with anti-war, anti-Bush!

7th June'08:
Quite tired during the day, but enjoyable at night! ^_^
11am brunch with azah in kopitiam. 1pm drive to Port Klang and picked-up my cousin. Back home at near to 3pm and sleep! woke-up at nearly 5pm. Early dinner at 6pm then...ready for P.Ramlee the Musical theater! ^_^ with so damn excited! 7.45pm straight to Istana Budaya. Nearly 3 hours enjoying the theater with the one who 1st time watching theater...at the end he just said..."teruja..." ahaha...berbaloi la coz I bought the most expensive tickets for both of us! "Takpe...I belanja..and frame this ticket as memoir ok." ahaks! The most excellent parts was during the time Noorizan fighting with P.Ramlee & when Remy and Sally tackling each other! so enjoyable! well done! =D just straight back home after the show. ahaha.. =)

8th June'08:
Just relaxed in house while eating and playing Paradise pat salon! I'm so damn addicted to this game! besides Diner Dash and Frenzy Pizza =D ahahaa...forget about my fav game Pharaoh =P then suddenly received calls from my beloved friend, Watt. So, she picked-me-up and we just enjoyed our dating in Midvalley. Eating and talking and visit the pet shops. After dinner at Jusco asam laksa, Watt send me back home. At home, instead of keep playing the pet salon game, I watched Sex & The City season 1 & 2...till I sleep.

The dazzling musical theater, produced by the excellent team of Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical, story of legendary P.Ramlee whose outstanding body of work in film and music, and artistic genius survives & still green till today. The theater show back in time to the glory days of the 40's 50's, and 60's with so superb elaboration of sets and props, stunning costumes and live music featuring some of the Ramlee's popular pieces - with a focus on his loves, passions and personal life. P.Ramlee The Musical featured talented stars which are Musly Ramlee as P.Ramlee, Liza Hanim as Saloma, Melissa Saila as Noorizan, Atilia as Junaidah & Emelda as Azizah.

p/s Thanks abg iqbal for your helps last night. Nnt kite dating lagi ok =)
p/s2 thanks to Brandon for your sms & phone calls! ^_^
p/s3 thanks to Yusfi & Baem for you cares! I'm in a well condition for this moment =P

Uncertainty

Hmm...I'm just here to write down a memo. Walla! Thanks.

Memo: I'm tired of the uncertainty and doubt that comes from not knowing how the people in my life really feels...and how they're not knowing how I really feels.

Fuel & consequences

Ya ya ya...yesterday, 5th June 2008, can be say was the 'best ever special date' since our 'special' PM working-so-hard-ruling our country. and as one of the big-bang consequences, all beloved rakyat jelata berterima kasih by saying "damn you PM! and bla bla blaa..." so whatever! at first i don't wanna care but at last i do have to care coz it's does brings effects on-to everybody!

p/s please read sinis thought from Fendi Pak Lah dan Rekod Gemilangnya
p/s2 What's Dr M says... Oil Price
p/s3 Comments from Anwar Ibrahim Harga Minyak Melambung!
p/s4 also read feelings from Azah What will you do now that the oil price hiked up so much?

life goes on...

yup! yup! this is the matter which i want to write down after quite long 'lost' for a week and plus...life is going on and on...with and without all the things we want or we hate, we're searching for or we incidentally received, we love or we don't need, positive and bad, goes on further in and out, same and different and bla bla blaa...lots and complexes to think and write about! Messing! Chaotic! @_@

p/s orang tua pesan, kalau sayang, semua boleh dilihat melalui perbuatan...duit boleh dicari, kasih dan sayang tak boleh dibeli...
p/s2 aku pesan, walau bagaimana sekalipun, kena CAKAP! kalau tak cakap, ada kemungkinan TAK TAU.
p/s3 aku pesan lagi, kalau sama tu mungkin bosan, kalau lain tu lebih menarik...

Memo:
ah'ha...dont worry! u r not alone! ^_^ i'm also a lone-ranger like u, and i do think we're always enjoy it, right?
i know, i know, u r in a down mood lately, actually it's just...what can i say...sometimes, especially when we are totally tired, we do need time on our own, like hiding for a while in our own cave kind of...we need some spaces for us to settle down what's on our mind which make us cant stop thinking! understood! it's just that, dont worry...and what u can do is...maybe search for one good listener and share everything that u r feeling now...it's not suppose to b ur best fren...believe me, u'll be released of all the worries after that! =) and at the end, u'll realize it's actually not really hard ;) daa...

teruja... @_@

wow! lately when I'm reading lots and lots of different kinds of, genres of blogs and bloggers, I'm becoming teruja...eager to, interested to...sampai pening, in thinking of lots and more things i would like to write out...but...can you imagine when you are hungry and suddenly in front of served with lots and lots of foods, meals and drinks, included together with all your fav chocolates and cakes and juices bla bla blaa...which will you choose? will you eat first then drink or vice versa or multiple? you will finished it all or just eat small pieces then another pieces and so on...? or maybe you'll eat want you want then keep it all others? ahaah, multiple choices of actions! so...at the end actually maybe you just dream it all or just watch it and leave! ahaah...understand what I mean? @_@ teruja...

p/s these days I'm feeling too swamped by too many things...I'm getting frequent paranoia that hit me out of somewhere...my brain can't stop thinking! even in my sleep! @_@ could the time give me some breathing space?

tsumaranai yooo... @_@

ok ok I'm writing now... =P thanks for all of your supports to encourage me to keep on writing...ya as most of you, my friends, said "see...lots of things you are able to speak out and all are good if you can write it all in your blog so that whoever with no opportunity to listen can at least read it!" ehehee...ok I'm agree with that but, there is a but, I'm able to write as fast as I'm thinking nor speak! can you get that? huhuhuuuu...I'm trying and it'll take time.

by the way, lately and since I enter May'08,my life change to tsumarai situation, I mean I'm bored in lately boring situation. everyday quite relax with less jobs to do but just some short time with sudden emergency-works-to-be-done-fast...having more time to eat and eat...instead of keep on studying on latest updates in telco world such as WiMAX & LTE & Roaming & etc,at the same time i can focus on doing private works like searching for movies & songs, reading one blog then jump to another blogs, searching for my most wanted books, still looking for any part time works with can fulfill my free spaces, enjoying learning on psychology & mind tests & cosmetics-cop & health & investment & bla bla blaa, resulted my mind loaded with lots of things to think of...at least i can make my mind 'hectic' instead of myself which is now I put under boring mood! which also resulted with some pelik kind of thing seperti kesalahan dlm pertuturan seharian, for example, orang cakap 'mandi kerbau' aku cakap either mandi ayam or mandi badak, 'bertunang' aku cakap 'bertenang', 'surat kabar' aku pronounce 'surat k-bar' etc...included some irregular actions seperti makan banyak ayam sedangkan I'm not chicken lover, dan sudah pandai makan sotong gergasi, I mean sotong yg besar tu sedangkan sebelum ni I'm totally can't accept that sotong! ^_^ perubahan yg lain ialah, in office dari seorang engineer yg busy bertukar menjadi seperti admin yg bored...in house aku sudah bercampur gaul dengan housemates yg membosankan, out of anywhere aku sudah berjaya menghabiskan bacaan my fav haruki murakami's novel entitled Norwegian Wood since I bought it on last Jan 2006!! yey yey! can you imagine how long I took to finished reading this book!? itu membuktikan aku memang read it whole with all my heart & soul! buku tu memang comes with feelings la...ups! it's not book of love story orait, it's a story of life. next I'll buy maybe Sputnik Sweetheart or Dance Dance Dance or The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, wait & see...

some more, beside this boring kind of life, thanks for some of you who tried to take me out of this boring nest =) all the times, I do need someone to share the whole 'what's happening' in me, but usually, let me repeat this sentence again, "we'll get someone which we don't want to..." yup it's true, then that one which at first we don't want, end up to be the one which we need the most...all the time...along the time...and can you imagine if the one we need the most is 'lost'? or just kejap ade kejap takde? or 'just see you when I see you'...? or like "I can't feel that I'm having you"...ahaah...whatever! "ok, whatever".

p/s I dedicated the last paragraph to the one who hates my "ok,whatever"

If I cant help falling in love with you...

Quote:

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay, Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Woman needs...

Today, I want to represent all women to let the men know what we really need especially in a relationship, I mean true relationship which comes with loves. Women always wonder what men really want in a relationships, and you want to know something? Men actually wonder the same thing. So for you men out there, below can be the 'expensive' tips...which actually not all of you men can or able to do it well...but it's still all right, as long as you try it with your partner,and I'm totally sure she'll love it and she'll loves you more! ^_^

1. Woman wants to be understood and respected. Mostly, women want men to understand how they feel, plus with be respected. Woman needs their man to hear her out and allow her to share her feelings, don't really need her man to solve it, because she actually can handles her problems on her own. Instead, women just want the man in their lives to understand what they're going through, what's happening to her, and if can, everything related to her! By the way, ignoring or putting your partner down isn't going to foster respect in the relationship!

2. Woman needs to be loved and cared. Mostly, woman needs to feel loved by her man, needs to know that her man truly loves her, and if can, above anyone else. She needs to feel like her partner cares for her. When she's overwhelmed, she needs her man to show that he cares by helping to ease her load. If she's sad, she needs to know that her man cares about what is happening to her and what she's feeling. A relationship is a serious commitment, so when she knows where're loves and cares, she will continue with the commitment.

long & lose & appreciate

in a long relationship, you tend to take for granted many small but meaningful things.
those small but meaningful things, you will only appreciate them when you lose them.

helping & helped.

Men mistakenly expect women to think, communicate, and react the way men do; women mistakenly expect men to feel, communicate, and respond the way women do. Are you forgotten that men and women are supposed to be different?? So a result the relationships are filled with unnecessary friction and conflict!

Memo:
lately received some 'relationship conflicts' which need helps,
so let me help by...ready...now follow me slowly...
now stop thinking of it! I mean the conflict which you're facing now,
then relax and control your breath & calm your mind...fuuuuhhh...okay...
next, rethink of what's happening, again...
but this time look at it as one short 'movie' or like a trailer of a movie...
and you're as the audience...now just give your honest comments for 'the movie'
then try to think what should 'they' do to release the conflict...
got it? now apply the ways to yourself...
remember...think with the positive ways orait!
and together in a cheerful self-ways... ^_^
by the way, all of us want it to be positive right?
and according to the Law of Attraction, we order positive, we'll get positive! and vice versa...walla!

One hour to live...

Memo:
If you had one hour to live and could make just one phone call, who would you call? What would you say? And why are you waiting?

Relationship...

today is a happy day for me, (although inside of me there is something wrong which was just happened in last few days that make my heart hurt and my feeling is sad all the way till now... just forget it,) this time i just interested to write down one good thing happened...

let me put the situation as a girl and a guy in a quarreling-mood...this is the common-bad situation that always happen in a relationship, for couple, or best friends...at the end, you want to know how and what's the best way to settle it? just go though the below dialogs:

Girl:
"u always thought of yourself as a loving person, but you actually had been just a fair-weather friend! as long as I'm happy and nice, you loved back. But if i was unhappy or upset, you would feel blamed and then argue or distance yourself..."

Me: I told the guy do not leave the girl. And at the end...the guy thanked me as below:

Good guy:
That day, for the first time, I didn't leave her. I stayed, and it felt great. I succeeded in giving to her when she really needed me. This felt like real love. Caring for another person. Trusting in our love. Being there at her hour of need. How had I missed this? She just needed me to go over and hold her. But as a man, I didn't know that touching, holding, and listening were so important to her...

quote:
"Right now I'm in pain. I have nothing to give, this is when I need you the most. Please, come over here and hold me. You don't have to say anything. I just need to feel your arms around me. Please don't go..." and the husband walked over and silently held his wife. "She wept in my arms. After a few minutes, she thanked me for not leaving. She told me that she just needed to feel me holding her."

Memo:
it is so important for a couple not to misinterpret and mismanage the stress in their daily lives, because all the reactions are ultimately can affect their relationships. actually for you girls, it's not that he's just not into you, he needs to fulfill a biological need. so do for guys, it's not that she wants to henpeck you, she also has a biological drive. so how a guy's withdrawal is actually a natural way for him to replenish his depleted testosterone levels and restore his well-being, and how a girl's need for conversation and support helps her build her own stress-reducing hormone, oxytocin.

Law of attraction

as been asked by some of my friends regarding my YM status, so here i would like to write down what and why 'law of attraction' ^_^

started in year 2004, I've been attracted by this topic due to my self studying of EQ & SQ while searching of 'coincidence' =P actually by that time my mind looked like doubt of 'coincidence'...because as been understood, all stories of us had been written, well, like a script of a long long story and all of us are the characters in the story who's acting accordingly to the script bla, bla, blaa...something like that. so, I've read lots of articles and indirectly jumped to this subject matter.

the law of attraction I can define as 'like attracts like', means as everything that happens to you is like you attract it all to yourself, by yourself. no matter good or bad. like you're putting out orders, consciously or unconsciously. let me give an example - you are in pizza hut ordering a pizza, in your mind of course you fully expect the pizza which you'll get served the way you've imagine and want it to be, right? so, that is law of attraction. everything you focus on (order a pizza) can have an effect on your life (you'll get a pizza). it's like we attract into our lives the things we want, that is based on what we're thinking and feeling. we create our own circumstances by the choices we make in life, and the choices we make are fueled by our thoughts. the feelings that the thoughts generate are what actually attract things into our lives. in order to attract the things you want into your life, you have to place the right order. Visualizing your future life can help to hone your thoughts and feelings toward the things you want, so your thoughts, feelings and actions all have to be firing simultaneously in the same direction. Hmmm...mcm when you're talking about action, it must be about walking in the direction which you want.

by the way, according to law of attraction, there is no such thing as a 'coincidence', and this drag me in. everything in the world is made up of energy, which is controlled by thoughts and feelings. so you are sending out signals (orders) and these signals attract like energy to you. it's fact that everything happens by principles and laws in our universe. and so consequently, inside of ourselves, we do having an absolutely unlimited power, realize it or not. there are 3 simple steps in law of attraction - Ask. Believe. Receive. Alaa...sepertimana yang selalu kita buat setiap hari. solat dan berdoa, percaya dan beriman, maka pasti akan dilimpahi rahmat =)

ok, i'm feeling dizzy now...pening membuat penerangan law of attraction! =P hahahaa... tak paham pandai2 la tanya. Done!

Memo: ralat itu normal.

it's delicate?

you hate to bring the umbrella,
although you know it will rain,
don't acting you're independent,
and you are all innocent,
mulish and stubborn!
stop blaming yourself,
and don't doubting this and that,
please stop denying,
instead you really need it,
perhaps, still you are not?
at the end, you just realized,
your heart is delicate...nostalgic!

Memo:
picture meeting your lover a little later than convenient...perhaps.
the happiness will have shapes when being shared with someone.