Apologizing?

I said I'm sorry,
but you just say 'tengoklah'...
that's cool! so 'tengoklah!'
damn I never ever feeling this guilty in me,
and congratulation coz U did make me feel so,
it's not fair enough actually,
when we're together with anybody or somebody,
in this kind of problematic situation,
we cant just thinking in one way,
we also have to put ourselves in that other body,
and think in our way...not just by my own way, neither yours...then, it comes to good communication skills.
and now make me think of my fav book from John Gray - Men from Mars, Women from Venus.
men came with their own language and so did women,
when both met in Earth, damn it's not easy to understand each others! yes, it's totally correct thou!
moreover when both are in any problematic case...
no matter how good one of you in communication,
but when it comes to FALSE translation...further
lead to misunderstanding and not-'what I mean'-definition, go on to 'fight'! This is the main problem with these 2 creatures from Mars and Venus...and once again, it's so damn true, GOOD COMMUNICATION SKILLS!
not to forget, plus with good understanding...
oh! don't misjudge by assume that I'm talking about LOVE case here...it's just on talks between men and women...but if u still want to relate it to LOVE, honestly, I've to add one more word - COMPLICATED!
true! It'll be more over complicated, not just for woman, but also for man thou! it's true...just think of it by urself...I'm sure U'll realised it sooner or later.

p/s Thanks Amir for giving me chance to accompany you to Melaka, and I did love our talks-of-that-some-cases! ahahahahahahhh! I love to talk to you thou! U give me double steps out of the general box!
p/s2 thanks to my beloved Watt for ur cares on me as one stubborn, disobedient and quite-naughty person fren of yours :x
p/s3 I love you my sist Along Azi! =)
p/s4 not to forget, thanks to Baem for the dinner+talks ^_^

uhuk! "(@_@)

huhuhuuu...have u ever think of me...?
I mean u, yes u who are reading what I wrote here,
have u? or u just read out this post becoz of...something else?
not becoz of me? uhuk! uhuk!
it's okay...actually it's really okay...
it's just that...
I'm thinking of is there anybody thinking of me when I'm thinking of them!?
ahaks! whatever, nothing much important here,
and nothing less important too...
means...nothing! huhuu...
sometime u think u can take care of everybody,
mostly all the time u do taking care of everybody,
as caring as u are and as u can...but...
some of the times, u yourself need to be take care of!
have u ever take care of yourself?
or has anybody that u taking care of taking care of u too?
or...don't u feel like, it's better if...
u don't have to take care of anybody and nobody has to care of u too!?
it's free to free, or win to win situation! right?
don't u think so?
uhh! never mind, just read then ignore it all,
it's just a release for my mind to write out anything it want me to express it out,
that's all! Walla!

Special day on 21/10/2007! ^_^

wow! I'm so cheerful! Today, Sunday 21/10/2007, what a special day in my life, hehehe...does it sound like I got married today? Of course no, but something change in me & in my life...and this changing condition of me, maybe gonna affect, will be affected, all my other thingy surrounding me, along my life, will affect my family, my friends, instead of only myself...this time it sounds like a huge change right? the answer is yes, big life change for myself. And honestly, it's a big responsibility for me to go on with this change, and all other will-be-following-changes after this...but, for these whole changes, I'll fully accept it all and I'm totally happy with it all ^_^ and I'm serious of it all! I'm in one big commitment this time, and I've to put full trust in myself for this commitment! wow, I love this commitment! ^_^ another great challenge and I love it so!

Since now on, I'm totally in charge to take care of this special responsibility...each responsibility need some sacrifices. Please pray for me I can take care of this as well as I can =) Ameen.

p/s special thanks for the only one who dare to accept this life challenge with me. I love u so! We'll supporting each other for this commitment, together, ya...& happy birthday to you ;)

p/s2 on this time while I'm writing this post, only 6 people who already knows the change I made...hehehee...if U know, means U are special for me, and I love U ^_^ for others, U'll also know later...while this change is going on...walla!

p/s3 for my colleague, Amanda & her husband, happy 1 year anniversary to both of you, today! ^_^ I'm so excited, waiting to see your baby! soon! hihihii...

overwhelmed & inundated! @_@

once and again...I've disappointed myself...& I'm sorry in advance, because I've also maybe indirectly, without I realized, I've disenchanted someone...anyone, else... its truly hard to enthrall & keep everybody surrounding us happy, as more tough as to keep satisfy our own selves...part & parcel, will mixed up with something somewhat small bad doodad, unpardonable gizmo...whatever! and these are all what are appalling thingamabob which keep on playing in my mind, disturbing some not parts of my daily activities/works in nowadays, past 2, 3 weeks...huhuuu...I'm wholly hectic!
Now, I'm a bit melancholy...down in the dumps... its time I need to do some mind cleanup! brainwash! & cheers! ^_^