long & lose & appreciate

in a long relationship, you tend to take for granted many small but meaningful things.
those small but meaningful things, you will only appreciate them when you lose them.

helping & helped.

Men mistakenly expect women to think, communicate, and react the way men do; women mistakenly expect men to feel, communicate, and respond the way women do. Are you forgotten that men and women are supposed to be different?? So a result the relationships are filled with unnecessary friction and conflict!

Memo:
lately received some 'relationship conflicts' which need helps,
so let me help by...ready...now follow me slowly...
now stop thinking of it! I mean the conflict which you're facing now,
then relax and control your breath & calm your mind...fuuuuhhh...okay...
next, rethink of what's happening, again...
but this time look at it as one short 'movie' or like a trailer of a movie...
and you're as the audience...now just give your honest comments for 'the movie'
then try to think what should 'they' do to release the conflict...
got it? now apply the ways to yourself...
remember...think with the positive ways orait!
and together in a cheerful self-ways... ^_^
by the way, all of us want it to be positive right?
and according to the Law of Attraction, we order positive, we'll get positive! and vice versa...walla!

One hour to live...

Memo:
If you had one hour to live and could make just one phone call, who would you call? What would you say? And why are you waiting?

Relationship...

today is a happy day for me, (although inside of me there is something wrong which was just happened in last few days that make my heart hurt and my feeling is sad all the way till now... just forget it,) this time i just interested to write down one good thing happened...

let me put the situation as a girl and a guy in a quarreling-mood...this is the common-bad situation that always happen in a relationship, for couple, or best friends...at the end, you want to know how and what's the best way to settle it? just go though the below dialogs:

Girl:
"u always thought of yourself as a loving person, but you actually had been just a fair-weather friend! as long as I'm happy and nice, you loved back. But if i was unhappy or upset, you would feel blamed and then argue or distance yourself..."

Me: I told the guy do not leave the girl. And at the end...the guy thanked me as below:

Good guy:
That day, for the first time, I didn't leave her. I stayed, and it felt great. I succeeded in giving to her when she really needed me. This felt like real love. Caring for another person. Trusting in our love. Being there at her hour of need. How had I missed this? She just needed me to go over and hold her. But as a man, I didn't know that touching, holding, and listening were so important to her...

quote:
"Right now I'm in pain. I have nothing to give, this is when I need you the most. Please, come over here and hold me. You don't have to say anything. I just need to feel your arms around me. Please don't go..." and the husband walked over and silently held his wife. "She wept in my arms. After a few minutes, she thanked me for not leaving. She told me that she just needed to feel me holding her."

Memo:
it is so important for a couple not to misinterpret and mismanage the stress in their daily lives, because all the reactions are ultimately can affect their relationships. actually for you girls, it's not that he's just not into you, he needs to fulfill a biological need. so do for guys, it's not that she wants to henpeck you, she also has a biological drive. so how a guy's withdrawal is actually a natural way for him to replenish his depleted testosterone levels and restore his well-being, and how a girl's need for conversation and support helps her build her own stress-reducing hormone, oxytocin.

Law of attraction

as been asked by some of my friends regarding my YM status, so here i would like to write down what and why 'law of attraction' ^_^

started in year 2004, I've been attracted by this topic due to my self studying of EQ & SQ while searching of 'coincidence' =P actually by that time my mind looked like doubt of 'coincidence'...because as been understood, all stories of us had been written, well, like a script of a long long story and all of us are the characters in the story who's acting accordingly to the script bla, bla, blaa...something like that. so, I've read lots of articles and indirectly jumped to this subject matter.

the law of attraction I can define as 'like attracts like', means as everything that happens to you is like you attract it all to yourself, by yourself. no matter good or bad. like you're putting out orders, consciously or unconsciously. let me give an example - you are in pizza hut ordering a pizza, in your mind of course you fully expect the pizza which you'll get served the way you've imagine and want it to be, right? so, that is law of attraction. everything you focus on (order a pizza) can have an effect on your life (you'll get a pizza). it's like we attract into our lives the things we want, that is based on what we're thinking and feeling. we create our own circumstances by the choices we make in life, and the choices we make are fueled by our thoughts. the feelings that the thoughts generate are what actually attract things into our lives. in order to attract the things you want into your life, you have to place the right order. Visualizing your future life can help to hone your thoughts and feelings toward the things you want, so your thoughts, feelings and actions all have to be firing simultaneously in the same direction. Hmmm...mcm when you're talking about action, it must be about walking in the direction which you want.

by the way, according to law of attraction, there is no such thing as a 'coincidence', and this drag me in. everything in the world is made up of energy, which is controlled by thoughts and feelings. so you are sending out signals (orders) and these signals attract like energy to you. it's fact that everything happens by principles and laws in our universe. and so consequently, inside of ourselves, we do having an absolutely unlimited power, realize it or not. there are 3 simple steps in law of attraction - Ask. Believe. Receive. Alaa...sepertimana yang selalu kita buat setiap hari. solat dan berdoa, percaya dan beriman, maka pasti akan dilimpahi rahmat =)

ok, i'm feeling dizzy now...pening membuat penerangan law of attraction! =P hahahaa... tak paham pandai2 la tanya. Done!

Memo: ralat itu normal.

it's delicate?

you hate to bring the umbrella,
although you know it will rain,
don't acting you're independent,
and you are all innocent,
mulish and stubborn!
stop blaming yourself,
and don't doubting this and that,
please stop denying,
instead you really need it,
perhaps, still you are not?
at the end, you just realized,
your heart is delicate...nostalgic!

Memo:
picture meeting your lover a little later than convenient...perhaps.
the happiness will have shapes when being shared with someone.

OMG! Hmmm..?

in passed 2 weeks, I mostly spent my whole office-hour-durations in-office. Seldom to sites. So, mostly doing readings...on my fav topics like IQ, EQ & SQ, brain & psychology, law of attraction, men Mars women Venus, then blogs by blogs and some forums. read all any post which attracts me, especially that encourages me to think! Erratic or eccentric kind of. I'm an open-thinking kinda person, a self-contained nonchalantly reader and blogger ^_^ it's just that, most of the time, my brain always fulfilled with so many thoughts which most of it I want to speak-write it out but I'm not apt or fast enough to speak-write it out!! @_@ uurrgghhh! then ended like frozen contemplations! maybe because I'm not good enough in writing, perhaps...

p/s Malaysian lesbian? Read...
p/s2 Politic thinker? Read...
p/s3 latest blog I read - love.hate.life.angel - Read...
p/s4 heavy writer? Read...
p/s4 polygamy? Read...
Memo:
In the guy's mind, the withdrawal scenario usually goes something like..
“Whoa! When did this turn from fun into a ton of work? Things have been great, but now it feels “different” because she's unsatisfied and pushing on me to define our relationship…”
“And I HAVEN'T EVEN DECIDED what I want exactly, or what the heck it is that I'm feeling here…”
“And now that the chemistry and attraction we used to have has changed! I guess “the magic” is gone…!”
Men can sure be clueless idiots that actually do need help to notice the dumb things they're doing.

Today is Earth Day!

change!

hhmm...lately keep on thinking of doing some changes,
changes in me, myself, my life...
maybe I'm bored enough with some kinda boring things surrounding me,
maybe I have to jump to another ship,
maybe I need to be lone-ranger again as I was,
maybe I want to go out of this space of mine for a while,
maybe to underwater world, or upper sky world,
or maybe I supposedly go with Lat & Ivy to UK,
perhaps...perhaps...
but, I'm afraid that...
once I start changing,
lots of things will change!

noted: Live for the sake of living. Give for the sake of giving. Love for the sake of love. Learn because you can.

tanjobi omedeto to me soon!

Reminder...

waduhh...lots of my frens out there typing my blog address wrongly,
it's triple Z okay...if double Z, it will go to another new blog,
I don't know to whom it belongs to,
looks like the owner maybe Indonesian ;)
maybe...
by the way, to all readers, thanks in advance! ^_^

p/s for my photos, visit my multiply :D
p/s2 for those who advice me to add chat widget in my blog, I will. Just wait & see okie ;)

Fuuhh... ^_^

yuhuuu...! I'm back! ^_^ and feeling sooo released!
like with hunk of cheese, and square of chocolate and puff of perfume!
hehehee...I mean that I'm back to normal now, no more outstation to go till end of May, can just walking and working just around 'my daily life places' ;) it's just that...hmmm..now thinking of my gf, my BEE, need to be serviced! as been postponed since last 2-3 weeks!

So now I wanna complete something from what I've done in East Malaysia - conclude my short trip to Kuching & KK:

2-April-08, 'run' to LCCT from 6.30am. Breakfast in McD. Meet new friend - Rubecca, eating and talking non stop until we need to separate, she to KK, me to Kuching. Arrived in Kuching Airport at 1130. Waiting for Maxis people, then by car to Maxis TOC in Jln Bintawa Daya, before that, lunch in famous restaurant named Nurvogue, most of the meals are delicious! and that was the 3rd time I ate there. Next, trained Maxis engineers for Nethawk 3G protocol analyser, done with online monitoring and testing. 1800, one of us checked-in to Holiday Inn. Then, dinner in my fav place - Topspot, followed by checked-in to my fav Somerset Hotel ^_^ Around 2030, my ex-roomate, Wiena the Sarawakian picked-me-up and she brought me to quite unique-design restaurant named Trivolly Garden. Had supper - laksa sarawak! fuhh! tasted like soup pekat fulled with herbs! next jalan2 to Kuching Waterfront and snapped some pics till 2315! :D Thanks Wiena. By the way, regreted because I've to cancel from buying the famous Sarawak ikan masin, takut berbau bila ke KK nanti...huhuu...kempunan jer la...

3-April-08, hotel breakfast time till 1030. Then walked to Kuching waterfront again, snapped some pics again, till crossed the road to the shops in front of the waterfront. Wow! lots of arts thingy and handicraft and jeweleries and most of it come with unique designs and shapes! I just bought one sand stone bracelet and a t-shirt printed with map of places to visit around Sarawak. 1300, took taxi to the airport, lunch in restaurant named OneOnly inside the Kuching airport. Next, departure at 1505 and arrived in KK International Airport at 1640. My cousin picked-me-up and brought me to makan petang in area near to Promenade Hotel. 1830 I've checked-in and relaxed in the deluxe room! Luckily I got room with special-view so not to forget snapped some pics! at the same time merenung matahari yang sedang terbenam...so damn beautiful and I'm failed in catching the real view into my camera! huhuhuuu...SLR, SLR, that's the only thing running in my mind at that time! Next, rehat2 watching TV then siap2 to go out. Bosan la. Altho I've been told by Maxis people the training gonna be on 0030 midnite and I've planned to sleep early, but it's so boring so I just selamba like lone-ranger walk to the newest shopping complex nearby. Walked around for nearly 2 hours, I bought one Vincci flat slipper and straightly replace my shoe with it, then bought my fav 1901 hotdog, tapaw and with fast paced to hotel in hungry mode and makan! 2300 I slept and forced to wake up an hour later! uurrgghh! in sleepy mode to Maxis KK TOC in Jln Tuaran Inanam. Trained the engineers till 0330 then back to my sweet room and sleep! Tired!

4-April-08, checked-out from Promenade at 1200. While waiting for my cousin to pick me up at 1500, I walked to Center Point Sabah shopping center. Wow! got special promotion from Nike and Adidas! altho still same as regular prices, at the end I bought Nike Fit-Dry swim wear :p and nearly buy Adidas latest training shoe Adizero! expensive! and so comfortable! uurrgghhh! I force myself not to go to the ATM machine! sabar jer la... :D So, next, with my cousin, he brought me to makan then search for regular hotel just for one nite rest.

5-April-08, 0645 my cousin jemput me and start out 2 hour journey to Kundasang - kaki Gunung Kinabalu. Wow! the sceneries along the way, beautiful! we stopped at some places to snapped pics especially pic of Mount Kinabalu of course and unluckily my camera battery level nearly zero! damn! Breakfast near Ranau area then went to Poring Hot Spring Recreation Area. Main target was the canopy walkway. Cannot take pics laa...but still fun and enjoying! gayat jugak la...tinggi wooo!=p next relaxed and rendam kaki di kawasan air panas...1200 noon, start to balik because my cousin ada kelas at 1500. Oh, my cousin is the lecturer in Politeknik KK ;) So, lunch then Abg Man send me to his gf's house, Kak Ernie. So, I just lepak in the house alone coz Kak Ernie also having class at that time. I siap2kan diri, relax while watching 2 movies - Ice Skating and Knots. Best jugak la movie tu =) Next, 2030, Abg Man jemput Kak Ernie and me and ready for dinner! and because he knows that I totally love seafood, he brought me to Gayangs restaurant. Waaaa...banyak pilihan tuuu...semua hidup2 tau! including weird kind of shellfishes! lastly, as been courages by Kak Ernie, I ask for my most fav lobster and mangrove shrimps (ketam bakau) and prawn and jelly-vege which I forgot the name. And all just cost us RM230++ =D fresh seafood with suitable price! nearly 2300, back home and watched Sky High with Kak Ernie till sleep!

6-April-08, plan for snorkeling has been canceled due to some reason :( so, around 1100, Abg Man pick me, thanks to Kak Ernie, then to Philippine Market. Waaa...because of its my fav place, I bought the Swarovski crystal bracelets! one for mama, one for my sist and 2 for me! ^_^ and at last my money just tinggal 3 ringgit! My cousin just gelak! wahahahaa! Next, late lunch at Tangjung Aru beach. 1700 moved to KKIA, and I departed at 1830, arrived in KLIA at 2145. And 1 and half hour after that, arrived home, kemas2 and ready to sleep! so my happy journey end! =) Happy Wappy!

p/s I'll upload the pics when I've done editting it okay ;-)

out of KL for a while...

yuhuu...to all frens out there,
just for your information,
I'll be 'lost' for a while...
I mean I'll not be in KL start from tomorrow until Monday,
I'll be in East Malaysia,
working and enjoying ^_^
plus release tension and be alone,
I mean alone for just a few days ok,
do not worry, as all of u know,
I'm independent kinda girl...got used to it!
so...CHOW! (^_^)

miserable! to calm down...

uurrghh! altho now I'm having new office-colleague in helping me with my alone-jobs before, but my schedule still need to be re-arranged! I've thinking a lot lately...by the way, i am someone who always love-thinking-in-everything! maybe this is one of the style of geminian! =D whatever!
So, as the last day of March'08, what i'm doing most of the times today is reading blogs and update my diary and express all my feelings in My Heart'08 diary and lastly update my Epitomes...its like relaxing day for me, change miserable to calm down mood and feeling...well, it's good thou! good for me ^_^ ever since too busy with hectic life schedule start from last Dec'07! but it's calming down now...and suddenly...I'm thinking of...maybe jump to another ship...? perhaps...Celcom..? hhmmm...thinking..but maybe not yet!
By the way, I wanna stop writing now. Just wanna relax and listening to my fav song lately - from Juno movie, full time friend part time lover...but before that, just wanna update and let all of you out there know regarding Telco World in Malaysia. There will be one new operator soon, beside Celcom, Maxis and Digi, named Umobile. The numbe will be 018 and actually it already start promoting itself with Umobile - Surf with U. If you wanna know on details, just click on the below pics okay ;) Done! Daa...

Step Up! I love it! ^_^

Waaa...!! ^_^ I really really love this musics+dances kinda movie! as I always do since...since long time ago =) Step Up 2 - The Streets, wow! I most part which I love is the last dance from MSA - Maryland School af the Arts team, lead by both Chase the hero and Andie the heroin...walla! Love it thou! dance by the rebelliois street dancer in the rainy nite with so damn cool stylish movements and the most special is the effect from the rain-water like dancing together! cool! ^_^ If compare to Step Up 1, this one is more aggressive. Hero in Step Up 1, Tyler gage also included in this Step Up 2 but just in the intro part of it =) hey, just go and watch it and enjoy it okay! Daa... ^_^

p/s Azah, sorry to hear about what happened to your new car...hehehee...be more careful next time okay! =) and jom tengok wayang next time okay! ^_^
p/s2 click here to see Step Up - The Streets OST

back from home! ^_^

Walla! ^_^ I'm back from my family's home! soooo happy meeting everybody, except my bro shafiq coz he didn't back home last weekend...actually since last raya, ces! whatever! hehehe...same like his sister! malas balik rumah! hehehe...actually...that's me! ^_^

So, along the time when I was at home, things what I've done were long-sleep and watched movies from DVDs that I brought and shopping with my siblings, also my mama! huhuhuu...no time to spent with my abah, no life discussion as usual with abah, except, first time merajuk with abah! uurrgghhh! as the result, I cannot take the Honda engine oil from my abah's collection, as in one of the main reason why I choose to balik rumah! iisshhhh! @_@ geramnye! now I need to buy it by my own because it is time for me to service my BEE! walla wei...regretted! whatever!

Actually I was back hometown with less budget this time, my budget lost during outstations to east Malaysia actually. But, at least I still affordable and bought jeans and shirts and slack and needed things to both of my bros. And as usual, lots of home-kitchen things for my family. Except for my abah, his wanted camera, because I was still in merajuk mood at that time :p hehhee..at the end, everybody's happy, so do I =x of course we are happy when we able to make our love-life-people happy thou! Sayang my family much much! Nothing can beat the loves!

So, I just arrived in KL this morning. And because of still unsatisfied in myself due to not yet buy the wanted camera to my abah, so I went to Low Yat after had my lunch. At the same time, together with my aunt, she need me to guide her in buying laptop =) So, I've helped my aunt, she at last choose HP Compac beside the Acer, and I bought camera to my abah! ^_^ hehehee...so damn happy! Firstly, I want to buy the same camera as mine, but, at the end I choose the latest Canon digicam because the price is quite cheaper than my model. My camera is Canon Ixus 70, I bought Canon PowerShot A470 to my family. The functions nearly the same except the physical-look and the battery. I choose the blue color instead of red for my abah ^_^. hehehe...satisfied! Now...sleepy...so...bye and nite nite!

p/s to elmo, thanks for picked-up tweety this morning, and tweety said she really enjoyed the breakfast while watching the group of people dancing that old styles of dances - especially the salsa! ahaks! =x

My life...

Hola! Hola! ^_^ for such a long time I haven't sit and relax and writing down all the things running inside my mind & happened around me! uurrgghhh! Nearly one month I keep on silent - with the reason, drowning in the pool of troubleshoots and trainings especially for 3G networks all over the country...huhuu...just 2 more to go in April.

Okay, let me just conclude and make it compact & simple - my life ‘wrapping up’ for the last 4 weeks.

Lets start with end week of February’08 where I was in KK then followed by Kuching for the whole week. Done with 3G monitoring trainings for Celcom people in sites – Inanam (KK) and Pending (Kuching). Met new peoples, as usual, but most special-happy-thing was I ate lots of my fav fresh plus cheaper seafood! Especially in Kuching, the famous food court named Topspot, behind the hotel where I stayed – Somerset Serviced Residence. Every time I’m in Kuching I’ll target this Topspot as the main place to eat especially in gerai no 8! ^_^ and that was the second time I ate gamat, the sea cucumber….wahahahaa! When I compared between the foods in Kuching and KK, I’ll choose Kuching! More variety in tastes, hot n spicy instead in KK most foods are sweet and sour. But apa2pun all are good to eat. So, 29^th Feb back to KL. Huhuuu…felt quite tired-but-happy.

Ok. I started my March with fully relaxed and just isolated myself mostly in my room, for the whole day in house. Next, early 5am in the morning 2^nd March’08, yeeehaaaa…jungle trekking plus happily spent time with my outdoor gang in Sg Chilling, near to Kuala Kubu Baru, further up of Ulu Yam. Please go to My Photos as a proof! Hehehee…enjoyed the whole day crosses the river and relaxed in the waterfall area. End up that day with beef plus chicken barbeque! Wahahahaa…suddenly my memories go to my last jungle trekking plus mount climbing - Gunung Irau, Cameroon Highland on last August’07. Giler lama jugak aku stop outdoor thou! Half-a-year! @_@ rock climbing? Nearly a year thou! Giler kempunan! Uurgghhh…now I really-compulsory need to make some cleanup and defrag my life schedule! Serious! By the way, now I’m sure I can make some changes in it because I’m having assistant in office now, so all the works now able to be divided to half-and-half! :D yey!

Next, on 11^th March – I had Netcare Post Processing Tool training in Singapore. Huhuu…It was my 2^nd time to Singapore for 2008, again to Orchard Road. Not enough time for any activity other than training. Then, followed by works on sites for the whole week around KL. Agak bosan…bored! Especially when doing and dealing with the same people with similar activities.

Now on this week, I’m preparing for the next trip. I'll be in Kuching & KK, again! Starts from 2nd & 3rd April in Kuching follow by KK on 4th. Maybe after that I’ll stay there till Sunday...plan to go for snorkeling somewhere well in KK thou! Maybe Sapi Island or MamutikIsland or Manukan Island…might be Tunku Abdul Rahman Marine Park! Depends on time & money :p

p/s sadness: lost my Camel Active backpack lock in KK & my meloved Victorinox Swiss Army card kena rampas in Singapore Airport! How can it passed-by the scanner in KLIA? uurrgghh! Self satisfaction: bought handbag in KK & my fav perfume 212 Sexy in Kuching ^_^

huuwaaa.....!!! :((
can u imagine when one of your good best fren,
will be 'away' from you...
ya i've faced it before, and gonna face it again soon,
u'll feel like 'lost' and some spaces in u will be 'empty',
but, what to do, life has to goes on,
with or without him or her, my best frens ever...
n we'll be fren forever no matter what!
no matter who u are now n then...
coz once I've pasted in my mind and heart the status of who u are,
u'll be as it forever...
except if I've been forced wif any undeniable reason 'to kick u out of me',
then ur status will be downgraded...
don't worry, I'll never ever 'delete' u out of me once u've been in me...
again, once u've been in me, no matter who u r before n now n so on...
u'll be in me forever! and I'll love u forever!

p/s I dedicate this to all my life-love-people, especially Lat, Watt, elmo when I'm twetty, Azah, Alg Azi, Amir when I'm budak kecik, Nani when I'm chipsmore, Dr Maaz when I'm baby, 'Ribut Pasir' when I'm 'Pelangi Petang', Ida elvira, Baem when I'm Cinderella, Abg Iqbal when I'm pikachu, 'H' when I'm 'K', 'Prince' when I'm 'Princess', rahim & hanny & yusfi & shaha when I'm akak, Shah & Asri & Ash when I'm Ikha-chan and so on frens since I'm in this world...

p/s2 now they're on their way out of my way...with God blesses...I miss u...

Movies between works!

uurrgghhh! nearly half a month I've no time to even write down any draft of post in my Epitomes @_@ huhuuu...just working and rest and run for some movies when there is any unintended space of free time. Sounds like what a hectic life schedule right!? Hehehee...well, it's right and it suits me well, the one who's active and workaholic and lively-spontaneous and eccentric!The only negative of me is that I'm restless!

So, for this year, I've watched some movies. Mostly are good except MTS! Spoof-stupid movie to watch!Movies that I like were The Game Plan, American Gangster, CJ7 ( I watched it twice!) and Jumper. Malay movies were CUCI and Kala Malam Bulan Mengambang. The stupid one was Meet The Spartan!

So, one good movies I've missed was Cloverfield. But, life must go on and below are the movies in my must-watch-list! My fav kinda movies! Dances and Speed-racing! ^_^













p/s you can click on the movies name or image to watch the trailers =) Walla!

Speed Dating - 1st march 2008!

You are single? Interested for Speed Dating? Please refer to below info! ^_^

Guys and gals - thanks for the support. Our last event was a SOLD-OUT! Everyone made friends,and better - they had matches! - so you DON'T want to miss the next event.

As usual, email us your full name and contact number to adam.meets.eve@gmail.com so we can prep you up for the upcoming event. Check out pics from our last event on facebook!

RM 65 payable at the door, 50% if you bring 3 friends, FREE if you bring 5! The more the merrier, come with friends :)

To ensure privacy during the event, location will be revealed to SUCCESSFUL applicants only. Visit www.adam-meets-eve.com.my

Cheers!

Huh!?

OMG! What's happened? I've open my email, check on inbox, and this is what I have!?
ish! ishsshh! because of Gong Xi Fa Cai,
everybody's in their holiday, so they set the Auto-Reply email! ces! @_@ uurrgghhh!

Day of happiness! ^_^

^_^ wuhuhuuu...! I'm so much happy today!
what a special day for me, and my abah, and my bro and sist too! why? because today is the 'family dating day'!
at 12noon, all of us met in KLCC,
abah, Ikmal and Zeti took the bus from Raub,
my abah just parked his red Accord in Raub, lazy to drive! ceh!
So, we met in the center of KLCC and start with our fav food - Nando's! ^_^
uhuk! uhuk! paid by me okay...mana boleh bagi abah bayar! tak cun la! LOL :D
next, to our fav place - Kinokuniya! abah bought some books, me? not for this time :p
because on last few days I've bought 6 mags and haven't finish read it all yet.
next, because my abah most wanted book can't be found in Kinokuniya,
abah suggested to all of us to go to some bookshops along Jalan TAR,
so there we go...for me, Ikmal and Zeti, penat kitorang follow abah to all the bookshops! Urrghh!
because of malas tunggu abah, I've bought 2 Sudoku books, amateur to Im and Expert for me,
then kitorang tinggalkan abah and lepak in the nearest A&W,
drink the rutbir float plus trying the sudoku =)
next destination - SOGO, me with 3 missions - by my laptop bag pack, my mama's new handbag,
and new purse to my sist, Zeti...hehee..dah lama adikku ini menanti pemberian kakak dia :p
If I'm not mistaken, it has been for about 4 months I'm searching for the best laptop bag pack,
on my list it's either the Samsonite or Elle, but in SOGO I've bought Camel! ^_^
I'm so damn happy when I see the Camel bag, really happy!
altho I put the Samsonite and Elle bags side by side, at last Camel won my heart! ahahah! ^_^
next, while Zeti searching for her new purse, I'm dizzying in choosing which handbag for mama,
uurrgghhh! Braun Buffel, Bonia, Carlo Rino, all just have one compartment,
mama suka yang banyak compartments,
so, I bought SBPRC handbag, my fav brand with mostly my fav design!
then, for my sist, I bought her Polo purse as one that she chooses =)
Wahahahaaa! Settled! I'm smiling with full of satisfaction! Thank God ^_^
Lastly, 10pm, all of us get ready to return to my grandma's house in Raub,
and, for the 1st time in my life, abah said "oklah, kali ni Along drive la"
wahahahahahahaaa!! tak pernah hayat abah rela duduk sebelah and aku drive!!!
waaaa.....I love you abah! ^_^ so, I drive my BEE, happily and smiling and storying bla..bla..bla..
with abah sit beside me! =) wuhuhuu! dengar je aku bercerita and discussing sama-sama,
both my bro and sist just listening...after around 2 hours, arrived at Raub,
my abah take his car, then both of us drive to grandma's house,
arrived here, my mama's waiting with smile,
and tambah lebar smile nya bila tau aku belikan handbag baru! cececeeee... ^_^
So, before sleep, me and my bro try to settle at least one game of sudoku,
while I'm writing of my day of happiness. Walla!
Last but not least...to abah, mama, Zeti, Shafiq, Im and Ikmal, also grandma,
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! and nothing will change my love to all of you in my whole life! ^_^

hectic to boring...

huwaaaa..... @_@
first for past days which was so damn hectic for me,
job-loads and moving here and there,
second for the future days which will be boring,
I mean...during these 6 days of CNY holiday!
for last year, in CNY holiday I was into the jungle,
enjoyed in Jerangkang Waterfall & forest,
this year...huuuuhuu...no plan!
no plan at all! uurrgghhh!!

so...maybe its time for me to update my blog,
upload some photos,
and re-edit some posts in my draft box!
huwahahahahaaa...
whatever! ^_^ Gong Xi Fa Chai! daaa...

LOL day ^_^

kah! kah! kah! ^_^ today is the most LOL day for me...not to forget for some of my frens who's also 'joining' this unplanned look-like-a-game event! LOL! :D It's actually start during the lunch hour time, where I'm as usual walk as alone ranger to the 'kantin satu' :) then, suddenly, while waiting for the foods, a team of guys from Alam Maritim sit and share table with me..whatever..nothing to do with this 'event'. So, in that quite boring surroundings, I take out my phone and start to type:

" Agagahahaa! ^_^ kacau kacau semua orang! Hahagag! ;-D "

Then...continue eating...then walla! my phone start alerting! :D and below are all the reply which make me LOL!

Asri-san: LOL! :-p Pretty good. Got an addiction though.
Me: Addiction?
Asri-san: Yup, the can't-stop-thinking-of-it and never-mind-sleep type. Hmm, yeah I think I'll go to Starbucks after this.
Me: why? is this kind of addiction related to Starbucks? Ahaha.. ;-D

Amir: Giloz ko apo?
Me: Ahaha! another way instead of ask how r u... :p
Amir: Ye ke? I'm fine, tq. U?
Me: Xtra fine!
Amir: Terlebih vitamin gamaknye, haha!

Abg Iqbal: Kenapa kacau2 orang ni? Dah takde keje ke?

Angah: Selamat dah kenyang kalau tak dah kena ngap yummy2 ni...

Ahahaha! and some other kind of replies. LOL! ^_^ So, to all my frens who received this SMS, actually this is another way for me to ask "how r u?"...Lalalalalaaa...end!

Sheila Majid in Concert! ^_^

Wow! Now she's back! again! ^_^ siapa tak kenal Sheila Majid, the famous jazz singer, with no other can be beat voice! And I'm one of the fan of hers among the others! So, let us go and support to this charity concert, which especially in aid of the Institut Jantung Negara. Walla!

p/s woi sape nak gi jom la, jangan lupa contact I skali tau! :D

someone that you are not!

worst to be someone that you are not...
hmm...have you ever try to be someone else?
why? why you want to?
hmm...
this world is the stage, a very huge stage,
full contented with all the human beings as the actors and the actresses, besides together with all others...
pathetic! I know...some of us don't like the character that you got, so you try to change it to another character which you think you like...but, as the director said so, at the end, you can't! can you, actually? okay, stop with this mumbling-kinda-thinking!

here are some of the reasons why...
maybe you don't like the way you are so you make up your mind to change and be same as someone which you like to be as,
maybe someone that you love make you decided to set up and make up to be the one that they want you to be as,
maybe because you want to act different according to the person or group which you like to be with so to matched up with them all make you need to be someone that you are not as,
maybe you want to hide some part or parcel of you which make you down which make you try to act as attracted you can be as,
maybe you are force by someone like your parents or lover to prove that you're appreciate them and love them so you need to be the one that they want you to be as,
by the way...all these look like killing you in silent, you are killing yourself by acting as the one who is not YOU! why, you don't want to be YOU!? or anybody don't want you to be YOU? so what's so important for you not to be YOU? you are pretending to be someone... at the end, it's still worst to be someone that you are not!

p/s people, sometimes we do need to change, and it's for the better but not the worst. Think of it =)
p/s2 this post is just what I think when I heard the sentence "worst to be someone that you are not" =P Walla!

sometimes someone

When this unwanted time comes, the emptiness will be realized. It's like I'm smiling on the outside but crying on the inside. Feel like wanna run into my cave and hide inside and sit there alone, then thinking of what's happening in present and past. moreover in future. When I feel bored, I need to talk, with no one to listen because no one I can be with at the moment. Feel like no one cares when I need...shoulder to cry on... In everything, I always try my best, for the one I love, for people I care...but, still feel like no one cares about me! No one to talk to. No one can listen to what my heart wanna say and my mind is thinking...sad...at the end, everything from me, just can be explained and released to my own self!

I talk to myself. I write it all down somewhere in my laptop, and sometimes, half of it in to my blogs. Most of the time I'll feel better after that, but when I think it back why can't I share it with the one I love...it'll be...not the time yet, or, I don't have to do that...and this way at the end, I'm alone as the result. Yaaa..everybody has their own problems but I do think it'll be much more better if I have someone to share all these with...especially if the one who I can share with is someone I love, and more better if that one love me too. oh!! I need to cheer up my self! have to! or I'll be more sad and my heart will be sick! that's gonna be worst if I keep on talking with feelings, alone to myself! uurrgghhh! I can't clamp myself with all these feelings of sadness and emptiness! but sometimes, I did, and it made me lost within myself...blank! I don't know what to do and or I can't do what I want to do...everything messed up!

So, who can help me sort out all these untidy thingy? How I can solve all the difficulties in my mind? what can I do to reorganize all these rolling piece-and-parcel? I do need someone to advice me, and help me, who always be with me, supporting me...and love me, nonetheless cares about me...still at the end, the perfect answer is only one...God, who always listening and knowing all the things about everything! God, please show me the ways which you blessed, please give me strength and power for me to go through all these everything which has saddened me...God, I know you are always with me and know everything although I didn't tell you anything...my wishes and hopes, my loves and cares, my feelings, everything...I'm a small normal human although sometimes some people look at me as big and strong, but sometimes I can't stand alone, sometimes I'll be tired, sometimes I'll be bored, and at that time I need someone...to pamper myself...

By the way, hiding stress behind smiles have its own limit! and when it's up to it, without anyone cares what's happening inside of me, the only way to release it all is through tears ~_~ tears that calm me down. When you keeping most of the things by yourself, without sharing, it'll kill you...silently..and I admit, all what I feel, it's killing me! slowly.

Psychedelic?!

I'm sick,
I'm drained of waiting,
waiting of...
one memo saying about you
or asking about me...
one sentence of I love U,
to reply with so do I...
warm touches from you,
to melt my mulish-frozen-heart...
your voice to wake me up from my oblivious,
your smile which bloom mine,
your cares,
help me to fight the vain thoughts...
impishness from you,
which matched the unruliness of me...
your gentle sways,
that lead the vicissitudes inside of me...
extroversion of you helped in overcome my introversion,
all in waiting of...our love!

only U and Me altogether,
for the equilibrium of sanity,
to hold our sincere infatuation...as long as it can be.

p/s love is a long waiting, waiting for it to start, once it grows then waiting for it to get deeper, when it's deep enough, we still waiting...for it to end...

why he...? [2]

Why 'He simply doesn't call?'...let's say...:
~guys often show their feelings in can be say less 'direct' ways, instead of simply saying and expressing how they feel.
~most guys are more conscious of DOING things rather than relate to anything on emotional level.
~so, when it comes to guy and dating, just look at his actions and behaviors as the indiction of his inside feeling.
~so, read the guys by what they DO instead of what they SAY.

hhmmm...what else can I say...guy only calls girl that he likes every once in a while to keep the connection open, and at the same time making sure not to spend too much time or show her too many signs of interest that might indicate he would want a more serious relationship! =) So, if a guy isn't calling and you'd like him to call more and to grow in your relationship together, it really doesn't matter WHY! huhuuu...

p/s REMINDER! jangan pulak sebab he doesn't call you then make you calling him and taking on upset and hurt that he hasn't called or any other needy, clingy, or overly emotional actions that will make he thinking you'd be nothing but a pain if he want to get to know you and involved in a real relationship with you! walla!

p/s2 For girls, why don't we start to learn the actions that can develope the feeling of ATTRACTION inside a guy ;) heehee...tau tak how to do so?

why he...? [1]

MEMO: Amir, I got new case to handle...maybe u can help me thou! hehehee... ^_^

Psst..actually this kinda Q always been asked by girls especially in early time of any relationship...
Q:
~why this guy looks like hard to contact me again after some happy dates!?
~I do think we do like each other...but why in-between dates I don't hear from him?
~is that so much for him to pick up the phone and ask me how I am?
~Is it too soon to expect something? Am I asking too much?

A: hhmm...how to explain in a simple way ya...
actually, first, 'long time' for she doesn't means the same for he, by the way, there is no 'time' in a guy's mind! furthermore, 'dating' for she maybe not enough for he to think of it as 'dating' - uncertain dating stage. Generally, this maybe due to his attention and focus is on something else like busy with works, thinking of parents or family, nonetheless FUTURE! ok girls...faham!faham! kite pun sama kan...but actually...different! in this kind of situation, she'll become frustrated and bothered why he is like this and keep on whishing he would change.

The mindset she has right now can make he sees she as too demanding, apetah lagi kalau she has started talking about all her feelings of disappointments! and this will not go over well thou! So, instead of sitting around disappointed that he hasn't met she's expectation - agaknya he tak tau langsung, or tak faham pun! - she should started thinking about how to take responsibility to create the response she want from he :) - in a correct way so that he doesn't expects 'she's asking too much!' it's like an idea in communicating with he in a way that can creates attraction inside of him...hmm...cemne ea? by this level, firstly, she has to stop thinking just by her own way or behavior - has to make some differences like stop asking him too much for
what you want nor hoping that he 'meets
your demands' - otherwise this will 100% guarantee he won't want to give you what you're looking for...betul! inilah beza 'ego she' ngan 'ego he'.

Ceh! cam tak adil je bunyi nye as she looks like has to susah2 usaha sorang2 plak! for us girls memang la fikir camni, but for guys, ini adalah menarik! alaaa...same as kalau kite girls tengok guys do the same, usaha, kan menarik jugak bagi kite :p tak gitu? It's just that the ways in how to develope great situation/relationship are different between she and he...and these differences yang kalau salah faham or tak clear maka available to lead to 'fight'. Whatever sekalipun, just remember, don't do something that can KILLS the attraction of both might be feeling for each other.
Oh! need to stop...will be continue soon!

p/s be honest about what you want
p/s2 kan aku dah cakap dari dulu lagi, same jer both she and he...kan Amir! ^_^
p/s3 pening plak aku nak menulis bila campur bahasa ni, membawa kpd salah faham tatabahasa.

Come on guys!!

ahahahaa...I've received this 'data sheet' from someone, walla...no matter what, guys will keep on searching for girls okay...! and so do vice versa ;)

New episode!? ^_^

First of all, Happy happy new year 2008 for everybody! ^_^
and as usual, I'm sure most of us will step up to this new year with...
hmmm...with something new, some changes in self furthermore in life! :D right? yup I'm sure altho not all of us have new thing to be thinking of :p
For myself, of course! I have new vision and mission to be working for...it's hard! but I'll try to make it as smart and simple and cool as I always do,
and I admit, I've also need to step up into something better inside myself,
for my own good, and for people around me,
and also of course, especially for some important people who are somebody for me,
who always want me to do some changes and improvements in myself! ^_^ thanks for those and I do love all of you! ^_^ well, you know who you are to me right!? :p

Not to forget, I'm sorry for all my faults to all of you,
no matter what's the faulty is to you :p I'm sorry...
so, let step-up our life into the new episode!
and good luck in order to make this new episode better and the best! Cheers!! ^_^

p/s in my new episode, I wanna make my blog ikut suka hati aku la! ahaks! just assume that I've added new language into my blog that is 'bahasa melayu pasar'! Walla! :D
p/s2 thanks Azah for the new year celebration at your new house! cheerful! hehehe...nok gamba!
p/s3 hepi hepi when I met some old friends especially Norlee & Aya + hubby ^_^

Apologizing?

I said I'm sorry,
but you just say 'tengoklah'...
that's cool! so 'tengoklah!'
damn I never ever feeling this guilty in me,
and congratulation coz U did make me feel so,
it's not fair enough actually,
when we're together with anybody or somebody,
in this kind of problematic situation,
we cant just thinking in one way,
we also have to put ourselves in that other body,
and think in our way...not just by my own way, neither yours...then, it comes to good communication skills.
and now make me think of my fav book from John Gray - Men from Mars, Women from Venus.
men came with their own language and so did women,
when both met in Earth, damn it's not easy to understand each others! yes, it's totally correct thou!
moreover when both are in any problematic case...
no matter how good one of you in communication,
but when it comes to FALSE translation...further
lead to misunderstanding and not-'what I mean'-definition, go on to 'fight'! This is the main problem with these 2 creatures from Mars and Venus...and once again, it's so damn true, GOOD COMMUNICATION SKILLS!
not to forget, plus with good understanding...
oh! don't misjudge by assume that I'm talking about LOVE case here...it's just on talks between men and women...but if u still want to relate it to LOVE, honestly, I've to add one more word - COMPLICATED!
true! It'll be more over complicated, not just for woman, but also for man thou! it's true...just think of it by urself...I'm sure U'll realised it sooner or later.

p/s Thanks Amir for giving me chance to accompany you to Melaka, and I did love our talks-of-that-some-cases! ahahahahahahhh! I love to talk to you thou! U give me double steps out of the general box!
p/s2 thanks to my beloved Watt for ur cares on me as one stubborn, disobedient and quite-naughty person fren of yours :x
p/s3 I love you my sist Along Azi! =)
p/s4 not to forget, thanks to Baem for the dinner+talks ^_^

New steps journey ^_^

oh, oh! wallalalala...
tired but so damn happy today!
y? becoz of tried along new way from KB to KL,
for the 1st time in me, I've took thru Grik ^_^
along the way I've fully enjoying myself with the surrounding environment full of beautiful sceneries! OMG! I LOVE IT ALL!
so, together with my BEE and my IXUS70,
speeding up the hill to Puncak Titiwangsa,
stop whenever I can,
with the main target to snap the spur moments of beautiful-ness which so damn irresistible for just to have a look! OMG again!
stop! snapped! plus resting physical, mind and soul...
uurrgghhh! damn I'll take this way again next and next and next time soon ^_^
what I love other that the perfect best sceneries along the journey was that...
when I entered the highway,
It's time to speeding!!! ahahahahhaa...
yup, speeding is one of the best way I always spent with my BEE, especially to release tension or even sadness!? ahaks! by the way...thank to the red Jazz and black Civic for keep on speeding together (caya gak la auntie which drove the Jazz!) [oh BEE, u r welcome! I did it coz I love u, and of cos I know that's ur family! hehehee.. :D]
the journey which started at 8am+ end up at 5pm+...
not to forget, thanks to Cik Eli for accompanied me, and together laughing thru the journey!

p/s thanks to frens who responded to my sms told u that I've safely arrived...
p/s2 to u who don't know the right way to response, thanks for the 'fight'...no matter what, sorry and I love u.

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE

Uurgghhh!! I want to! I want to! Across The Universe! my most-wanted-waiting- for-so-long musical film! Musical film which combined 34 Beatles's songs!

Let me write down the synopsis of this movie - It's a whimsical and highly theatrical, brings some senses of romance and whimsy especially to the unique musical - is an original movie musical springing from the imagination of renowned director Julie Taymor, and written by Dick Clement and Ian La Frenais, that incorporates 34 compositions written by members of The Beatles. Stories that combined love stories - romances develop between Lucy and Jude, and between Sadie and Jojo, set against the backdrop of the 1960s. The star-crossed lovers, Jude (Jim Sturgess) and Lucy (Evan Rachel Wood), along with a small group of friends and musicians, are swept up into the emerging anti-war and counterculture movements. Tumultuous forces outside their control ultimately tear the young lovers apart, forcing Jude and Lucy to find their own way back to each other – against all odds. A lot of singing, dancing, sentimental mimics, sentimental gestures played by the actors. The music in this film consists exclusively of songs made popular by The Beatles during the time period depicted in the movie.

So, whatever it is, I'm gonna free myself for this movie, as soon as I can! I've waiting for long enough. Let's watch it thou! ^_^

p/s end up watching this movie was like fully enjoyed the concert of The Beatles! ^_^ GREAT!