teruja... @_@

wow! lately when I'm reading lots and lots of different kinds of, genres of blogs and bloggers, I'm becoming teruja...eager to, interested to...sampai pening, in thinking of lots and more things i would like to write out...but...can you imagine when you are hungry and suddenly in front of served with lots and lots of foods, meals and drinks, included together with all your fav chocolates and cakes and juices bla bla blaa...which will you choose? will you eat first then drink or vice versa or multiple? you will finished it all or just eat small pieces then another pieces and so on...? or maybe you'll eat want you want then keep it all others? ahaah, multiple choices of actions! so...at the end actually maybe you just dream it all or just watch it and leave! ahaah...understand what I mean? @_@ teruja...

p/s these days I'm feeling too swamped by too many things...I'm getting frequent paranoia that hit me out of somewhere...my brain can't stop thinking! even in my sleep! @_@ could the time give me some breathing space?

tsumaranai yooo... @_@

ok ok I'm writing now... =P thanks for all of your supports to encourage me to keep on writing...ya as most of you, my friends, said "see...lots of things you are able to speak out and all are good if you can write it all in your blog so that whoever with no opportunity to listen can at least read it!" ehehee...ok I'm agree with that but, there is a but, I'm able to write as fast as I'm thinking nor speak! can you get that? huhuhuuuu...I'm trying and it'll take time.

by the way, lately and since I enter May'08,my life change to tsumarai situation, I mean I'm bored in lately boring situation. everyday quite relax with less jobs to do but just some short time with sudden emergency-works-to-be-done-fast...having more time to eat and eat...instead of keep on studying on latest updates in telco world such as WiMAX & LTE & Roaming & etc,at the same time i can focus on doing private works like searching for movies & songs, reading one blog then jump to another blogs, searching for my most wanted books, still looking for any part time works with can fulfill my free spaces, enjoying learning on psychology & mind tests & cosmetics-cop & health & investment & bla bla blaa, resulted my mind loaded with lots of things to think of...at least i can make my mind 'hectic' instead of myself which is now I put under boring mood! which also resulted with some pelik kind of thing seperti kesalahan dlm pertuturan seharian, for example, orang cakap 'mandi kerbau' aku cakap either mandi ayam or mandi badak, 'bertunang' aku cakap 'bertenang', 'surat kabar' aku pronounce 'surat k-bar' etc...included some irregular actions seperti makan banyak ayam sedangkan I'm not chicken lover, dan sudah pandai makan sotong gergasi, I mean sotong yg besar tu sedangkan sebelum ni I'm totally can't accept that sotong! ^_^ perubahan yg lain ialah, in office dari seorang engineer yg busy bertukar menjadi seperti admin yg bored...in house aku sudah bercampur gaul dengan housemates yg membosankan, out of anywhere aku sudah berjaya menghabiskan bacaan my fav haruki murakami's novel entitled Norwegian Wood since I bought it on last Jan 2006!! yey yey! can you imagine how long I took to finished reading this book!? itu membuktikan aku memang read it whole with all my heart & soul! buku tu memang comes with feelings la...ups! it's not book of love story orait, it's a story of life. next I'll buy maybe Sputnik Sweetheart or Dance Dance Dance or The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, wait & see...

some more, beside this boring kind of life, thanks for some of you who tried to take me out of this boring nest =) all the times, I do need someone to share the whole 'what's happening' in me, but usually, let me repeat this sentence again, "we'll get someone which we don't want to..." yup it's true, then that one which at first we don't want, end up to be the one which we need the most...all the time...along the time...and can you imagine if the one we need the most is 'lost'? or just kejap ade kejap takde? or 'just see you when I see you'...? or like "I can't feel that I'm having you"...ahaah...whatever! "ok, whatever".

p/s I dedicated the last paragraph to the one who hates my "ok,whatever"

If I cant help falling in love with you...

Quote:

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay, Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Woman needs...

Today, I want to represent all women to let the men know what we really need especially in a relationship, I mean true relationship which comes with loves. Women always wonder what men really want in a relationships, and you want to know something? Men actually wonder the same thing. So for you men out there, below can be the 'expensive' tips...which actually not all of you men can or able to do it well...but it's still all right, as long as you try it with your partner,and I'm totally sure she'll love it and she'll loves you more! ^_^

1. Woman wants to be understood and respected. Mostly, women want men to understand how they feel, plus with be respected. Woman needs their man to hear her out and allow her to share her feelings, don't really need her man to solve it, because she actually can handles her problems on her own. Instead, women just want the man in their lives to understand what they're going through, what's happening to her, and if can, everything related to her! By the way, ignoring or putting your partner down isn't going to foster respect in the relationship!

2. Woman needs to be loved and cared. Mostly, woman needs to feel loved by her man, needs to know that her man truly loves her, and if can, above anyone else. She needs to feel like her partner cares for her. When she's overwhelmed, she needs her man to show that he cares by helping to ease her load. If she's sad, she needs to know that her man cares about what is happening to her and what she's feeling. A relationship is a serious commitment, so when she knows where're loves and cares, she will continue with the commitment.

long & lose & appreciate

in a long relationship, you tend to take for granted many small but meaningful things.
those small but meaningful things, you will only appreciate them when you lose them.

helping & helped.

Men mistakenly expect women to think, communicate, and react the way men do; women mistakenly expect men to feel, communicate, and respond the way women do. Are you forgotten that men and women are supposed to be different?? So a result the relationships are filled with unnecessary friction and conflict!

Memo:
lately received some 'relationship conflicts' which need helps,
so let me help by...ready...now follow me slowly...
now stop thinking of it! I mean the conflict which you're facing now,
then relax and control your breath & calm your mind...fuuuuhhh...okay...
next, rethink of what's happening, again...
but this time look at it as one short 'movie' or like a trailer of a movie...
and you're as the audience...now just give your honest comments for 'the movie'
then try to think what should 'they' do to release the conflict...
got it? now apply the ways to yourself...
remember...think with the positive ways orait!
and together in a cheerful self-ways... ^_^
by the way, all of us want it to be positive right?
and according to the Law of Attraction, we order positive, we'll get positive! and vice versa...walla!

One hour to live...

Memo:
If you had one hour to live and could make just one phone call, who would you call? What would you say? And why are you waiting?